awkward + awesome

awkward:
-I work at a gym, if you didn't already know. One of the most frustrating parts of my job is when someone piles four 45 lb plates on a machine, uses it, and then leaves it that way. You're telling me you can lift that with your legs but can't manage to take them off when you're done?! Beside the point. The awkward part was when I jokingly pointed to a fully stacked machine and said to a regular "you totally left this like that, didn't you?" No, but the guy standing directly to my left did. And he got reeaaaal offended. Foot, mouth.
-I am (still) entirely too absorbed by this whole Jodi Arias circus. To the point that I TiVo'd her Lifetime movie. And the after show. And kept J up past his bedtime educating him about the trial (for the 100th time).
-Trying to have a consult with a potential member with 4 other people in the room. Learned the hard way Monday that I am no bueno at that. Lot's of ums and uhs and I'm pretty sure I only gave her about 30% of the information I usually do. And then everyone made fun of me when she left. Thanks guys.
-The little dance I've made up to Blurred Lines. Well, the dance itself is pretty awesome. Getting caught performing it by the car next to me, not as much. (Why are so many of my awkward stories car oriented?!)
-One more work awkward: yesterday, while helping my boss take down some bars, one swung and basically impaled me where I stood. Knocked the breath straight out of me. And there's video. So I'm sitting in my office with tears running down my face I'm laughing so hard. If it was better quality, I'd upload it for you.


awesome:
-Forcing the entire gym to listen to Justin Timberlake Pandora today. And a guy just did the "Bye Bye Bye" move. You know which one I'm talking about.
-Who's taking two weekend vacations in a row?! This girl. Who has the best boss on the planet for letting her have two Fridays off in a row?! This girl.
-This. You're welcome. (But the noise I made when I saw it the first time definitely belongs under awkward...)
-Getting to spend the entire weekend with J last weekend. Friday: wedding, Saturday: historic downtown BR tour (because we're complete nerds), Sunday: lunch with my parents, weird movie marathon (Minority Report, Equilibrium, etc), and church. This never happens, people. And it was glorious.

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you know the drill.

awkward:
-Me. All week last week. I seriously lost all ability to function in social settings. Like, staring into space and doing that awkward "heh heh" laugh when I didn't really hear what people said. So bad. It comes in waves.
-Asking the woman, dressed in all black, standing at the bar of a restaurant, if I seat myself or just wait [maybe a little annoyed because she's ignoring me]. Said woman proceeds to look at me like I'm nuts and look at the actual waitress who's walking around the corner. Ugh.
-I started running again last week. Really, I could leave it at that and it'd be the best part of this week's awkward category. But for me, the most awkward part is coming in the front door and collapsing on the living room floor. And the fact that I'm still red in the face 45 minutes and a shower later. So sexy, y'all.
-The hardest part of my day at this point is not looking at every issue and answering every questions with either "I barely even work here anymore" or "I don't care". But I promised myself I'd finish strong.
-I'm THIS close to shutting  down the Lost party at my house because I can't stand to watch Michelle Rodriguez's pitiful attempts to act anymore. I just can't. She is the absolute worst.
-Also entertainment related, it's kind of starting to concern me how emotionally attached to Hunger Games' Peeta I am. Especially now that he's embodied in drool-worthy Josh Hutcherson. It's bad, y'all. Like...I'm not going to see the movie because I know my emotions can't handle it/I'm afraid I'll fall even more in love with him. Go ahead and laugh. I know my anguish is hilarious. [here's hoping J forgets to read this today.]

awesome: 
-Ok.I know I only think this weather is awesome because I don't have to be out in it. But I don't have to be out in it, so it's fun to watch through our big windows. I'm also blaring my "showtunes" playlist through my headphones and not caring about anything. All in all a good day.
-Getting stuck in traffic with J and making him answer Pivot's 10 Questions. And that turning into a game of 20 questions. I love him.
-Not counting today [because who counts today?], 3 days left at this job. That's right, I'm taking a vacation day this Friday. Best employee ever.
-I know that 9 times of out 10 there's a mushy sentence under awesome, but I'm in love, I'm in love, & I don't care who knows it! But it's really awesome to have J stand next to me while I talk about this new job venture and the places it could take me, and watch him beam with pride. And talk about how proud he is of me and how great he thinks I'll be at it. I'm seriously the luckiest.
-A weekend with no plans. After a month of being out of town every weekend, I'm really looking forward to some quality time with my own bed and the back of my eyelids.
-Putting in your 2 weeks at a job ='s not having to care about the internet rules. Hello Pinterest! I missed you!

it was a really awkward + awesome week...

awkward:
-I flew to and from Houston this weekend for a friend’s wedding, in the worst weather Houston’s seen in months. Flight’s delayed all over the place. 3 hour delay getting out of Houston. So much potential for awkward. Like sitting in a terminal restaurant by myself. Or attempting to curl up small enough to sleep in a chair. Or actually falling asleep and waking myself up by slamming my head into the wall next to me. I’m sure I was at least entertaining to watch.
-For those of you who don’t know from facebook or twitter, I quit my job yesterday. Before you panic, I have another one lined up, as the assistant manager at Frock Candy. I’m so excited for this new adventure and all the things it brings, but is there anything more awkward than coming to work after you’ve put in your notice? I vote no. I’m committed to coming in and working just as hard as I did before, but it’s just weird. If you’ve been here, you know.
-Have you seen Lindsay Lohan lately? She's breaking my heart. I wish someone would pin her down, dye her hair back to that pretty red, take all the fillers out of her face, make her eat a burger, and quit being so crazypants. She was my favorite when I was a kid! It just makes me so sad.
-I couldn’t decide whether to put this under awkward or awesome, so let’s just call it an awkwardawesome. Come to find out, my hair hates Texas water. So while getting ready for the wedding in Houston this weekend, I get out of the shower, blow dry my hair, and start freaking out. My hair feels like it’s covered it wax, the roots look like I haven’t washed in a week, and it’s just bad. I commence complaining and whining for the next 10 minutes while my sweet friend Johnna helps me with dry shampoo and encouragement, until she’d had enough, looks at the clock, and says “are you hungry? Do we need to feed you?”. It may go down as one of the best moments of our friendship, and that’s saying a lot. I love that she knows me well enough to realize that the overreaction was due to hunger.
-Hair topic #2: what this weather is doing to my hair. Here in LA it’s about 72 degrees and muggy as heck. It’s gross. So horse-tail thick, trying-to-grow-it-out length hair is freaking out. No matter how many times & how well I wash it, it feels like it’s got too much conditioner it in and is waxy and gross. Is this happening to anyone else, or just me?!


awesome:
-Watching two people I love very much and that love each other very much become husband and wife. It just never gets old. I continue to believe there is not much more beautiful that than. Oh, and the beyond epic dance party that followed. I love my friends.
-Quitting my job. That was awesome. Well, probably only because I’ve been miserable for about 3 months and got another job lined up. But still, never been so excited to quit something in my life.
-On that note, you know what’s super awesome? Getting a call that you’ve been selected for a job that you really wanted. And the girl on the other end of the line being just as squealy and excited as you are. And your best friend sitting across from you as you try not to burst into tears doing a dance and singing a song she made up about you quitting your job.
-Have I mentioned that I am currently a bridesmaid to the 3rd power? And that I love it so much. Can I be involved in weddings forever, please?
-Staying up until 1 o’clock in the morning, crying from laughing so hard at SNL skits and TV show bloopers with two of my favorite people in the world. I kept saying over and over again, I feel like I’m in college! Oh, and being able to sleep till 10 the next day.
-Designing business cards! It’s so much fun! I’m exciting about having something tangible & creative to hand to people to further my wedding business.
-My amazing friend Tara introduced me to the Sherwin Williams Colorsnap app yesterday. Y’all. You can take a picture of ANYTHING and it tells you what paint color it is. Like I wasn’t already addicted enough to color palettes and color schemes?! It’s amazing.

awkward + awesome gold mine

awkward:
•1/4 of the way through bible study last night, I realize something is violently jabbing me in my...excuse my frankess, but in my boob. A couple seconds later I realize it's the underwire from my bra. I slip to the bathroom, unzip my dress, fix it, and zip my dress back up, zipping a huge chunk of my hair with it. It took me a solid 5 minutes to get my hair out of the zipper.
•So I have this super cute pair of braided sandals that I love. They're about a 1/2 a size to big for me. But I wear them daily anyway. Yesterday I got up from my desk to ask my coworker something, and went flying across my department as the toe of my shoe bent under and catapulted me forward. I'm pretty sure she thought I was about to hurdle her desk.
•Shopping with a friend Saturday, we agreed to meet at Dillard's. When we left it was starting to rain, so we went our seperate ways and planned to meet at our next destination. She walked straight to her car while I wandered around a bit looking for mine. Meanwhile it starts to pour. It took me about 5 minutes of wandering to realize I had parked at the other entrance to Dillard's. Needless to say, I was damp when I arrived at lunch.
•Remember how amped I was about the Andy Davis concert last Friday? Yeah. We skipped it to go to dinner and go home and watch Swamp People. We skipped a concert by one of my favorite artists to lay on the couch and watch Swamp People. And it was my idea. Who am I?!!
•Lunges. And how stupid bad my butt hurts today. And the fact that I'm pretty sure I'm waddling.

awesome:
•Hour long fb conversations with my best friend who currently resides in China, who I miss more everyday. And the promise of getting to see her face on Skype Sunday.
•My amazing, wonderful father offering to fly me to Houston for a wedding this weekend on his points to save me the 5 hour drive. That man, I tell you. He's as good as they come.
•You should know that I have a secret [well, I guess not so secret now] obsession with Kate Middleton. I just love her. So this really made my day today.
•Corrine Bailey Rae's "Put Your Records On" with the windows down on a gorgeous day driving down the interstate. That's what's awesome.
•These two are getting married Saturday, and I get to be there. Alex and I met our sophomore year and I thought she hated me. And she thought I hated her. We solved that real quick with an hour long conversation in the hall of an apartment building, discovering we were passionate about all the same things. She's since become one of my most beloved friends, was my roommate for a summer, and even when we get on each other's nerves [aka we're both really strong headed and opinionated], we always make it back to each other. And Preston's just super awesome and sweet-hearted. So thankful that I get to be there to watch them become husband and wife and dance the night away. And until then, I get to stay with that precious pup in the middle. It's going to be SnuggleFest2012 up in there.

awk + awe

awkward:

-I never see my roommates. Which isn’t really that awkward, but the reason why kind of is. It’s because I’ve started going to bed at 9:00, y’all! Nine! I have become that friend that if you text her after 9:30, you’re going to get an answer the next morning. Plan accordingly.

- I would like someone to explain to me when I became such a wimp. Because I can’t remember it happening, but all the sudden I cry at/about everything. It’s completely out of control.  [i.e. I cried every single day last week. And I’m not PMSing.]

-My best friend left the country for a week. I almost forgot how to function without her to talk to everyday. When she got back on Monday I hugged her for a full 3 minutes and squeaked out that she can never leave me again. Drama queen.

-The panic I’m already feeling about bathing suit season. And not because I hate my body or anything unhealthy like that. Simply because I’m still convinced they’re never going to make a bathing suit top to contain this what’s happenin’ I’ve got up here. Cmon, y’all.  I want to be modest and cute at the same time! Help a girl out.

awesome:

-J’s sweet cousin got engaged last night to the most amazing girl I’ve ever met. I read the twitter update announcing it in the Win Dixie parking lot, and proceeded to jump around like a fool and yell “I’m so happy for them! I’m so happy for them!” for a minute straight. And I refuse to put this under awkward, because it was awesome.

- I am a part of what I have decided is the best community group known to man. I’m just so blessed to be a part of something that is continually growing and looking more like Jesus wants us to every day. It’s amazing. Does your bible study talk about biblical zombies and have the most dysfunctional bible drills ever? No. Didn’t think so.

-You know those times in your life where you feel like you just can’t hear God? You almost feel like you’re straining to hear something, anything. But all you’re getting is silence. And you’re frustrated. And then BOOM, here he comes, rocking your world loud and proud. That. That is awesome.

-I’m sponsoring over at Lauren Nicole this March. She’s one of my favorite bloggers around, and is married to another one of my favorites. Go check her blog and my pretty button out. 

awkward + awesome [& an amazing article about Lent]

awkward:

-I had this moment of revelation last night standing in line at Izzo’s with Jeremy of just how awkward the two of us are together. We are incapable of standing still, not pushing and nudging one another, and the best/worst part is how ridiculously hysterical we both think we are. So we are that couple that’s cracking up at one another and ourselves and acting like 11 year olds. I apologize in advance if you ever have to be around us.

-Coming  back to work after a day and a half off in the middle of your week. As glorious as it was to be off yesterday, coming back felt really weird and awkward today.  Oh not to mention that I walked in to a pile of things that had gone wrong in my absence. Yay!

-I need to quickly learn the lesson that trying to grab something out of the back door of our house (that faces the front of someone else’s house) in my underwear is never going to go well. I’m not invisible, nor do I move at the speed of light. 

-How super gross my hair was when I woke up this morning. And I showered last night. Apparently I still have the hair washing abilities of a 6 year old (you know, when you used to get out of the bath and still have suds everywhere). Needless to say, the hair’s in a high bun today.

-My family and I went to the precious little Covington Mardi Gras parade yesterday, and it was the only one I attended the entire festival season. So I might have gotten a little (read: embarrassingly) excited when it started. And then my alma mater’s band walked by and I got all misty and couldn’t stop saying “I’m so proud” over and over. My dad and sister just sat there and laughed at me. I’ll be here all week, people!

-How squealy and screechy I get if there’s a puppy in a 10 foot vicinity of me.  It’s out of control.

awesome:  

-Hanging out with a friend of J’s, and him asking “you’re the one with the popular blog, right?” Um, I don’t know? Is that me? Little by little people are starting to identify me by Fearless, and in the most humble way possible, it’s so uplifting and encouraging.

-Andy Davis. At the Varsity. March 2^nd. I haven’t missed a concert of his in LA in about 6 years. Don’t know who Andy Davis is? You poor thing, here you go.

-I’ve decided I enjoy weekends with very little planned much more than weekends jam packed with events and plans. Not to say that I don’t enjoy spending time with loved ones, because I do. But knowing that I get to lay on the couch with J on a Saturday and make him watch every Tyler Perry movie in the marathon that’s on just warms my heart. Do I get to claim the title “maw maw” yet?

-Matt Wertz, Andy Davis, Michael Buble,  Matt Kearney, and Dave Barnes hanging out with me all day at work. Thank goodness for a job that allows me to wear a headphone.

-The fact that today feels like a Monday but is in fact Wednesday. Thank you Mardi Gras holiday.

-This actually fits under the “awesome” category, but I want to make sure you read it, so I’m going to skip a line here. K? Anyway. It’s Ash Wednesday, and my facebook feed is full of what people are giving up for Lent. In fact, J and I just talked Sunday about giving up fast food (gasp!). But amidst all the promises of abstaining for the next 40 days was this article by Landon Whitsitt (writer, speaker, theologian, and artist), titled “Giving upchocolate and beer for Lent is not what Jesus had in mind”. And it’s awesome. Totally reframed my view of the next 40 days leading up to the celebration of the resurrection of Christ. I really think you should read it and see how you view Lent afterwards. 

awkward + awesome wednesday

awkward:

-So, I pretty much didn’t sleep for two days. Monday & Tuesday night I went to bed at like 10, woke up at 11 and it was game over, stare at the ceiling, plead with God to help me sleep time. Last night I decided to take NyQuil and knock out at 9. I woke myself up at like 2 yelling “NO” because I was having a dream that I’d woken up and not fallen back asleep. I’m such a freak.

-My roommate made these huge awesome cupcakes for Valentine’s Day. Can I tell you how much self-control I’ve expended not eating mine for breakfast the last two days? Cupcakes, breakfast of champions, right?

-A good friend of mine had their baby shower this weekend at this beautiful, huge home. After I’d finished my delicious sugar cookie I started looking around for garbage can for my napkin. After wandering for a solid 4 minutes, I finally resigned and placed it on the counter in the kitchen. Only to turn around to the hostess who informed me the can was RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE. Epitome of class, right here.

-Any day that I don’t have plans after work, this is my afternoon: walk in the house, violently shake out of my clothes on the way up the stairs, throw on sweatpants and a huge t-shirt, throw my hair in a bun, snuggle in bed, and turn on Lost. If that’s not sexy, I don’t know what is.

-All these meal replacement shakes do is make me want a steak. Seriously.  I’ve never craved meat before now. Guess what we’re getting for dinner tonight?

awesome:

-A boyfriend who chooses to take me out to dinner the night after Valentine’s Day because he knows how little tolerance I have for crowds. Oh how I love that man.

-Flowers. Don’t you just love flowers? I turned over to turn my alarm off this morning and was greeted by the beautiful red roses J gave me yesterday, and suddenly had the hugest grin on my face. Girls. Right?

-Our good friends’ baby does this thing when he sees me or I hold him where he puts his hand on my face and just coos. His mom and I are convinced it’s baby talk for “I love you”, and it’s my favorite thing ever.

-I sat in the back of church this week rather than our normal spot up front, and it was so cool to watch the movement of the crowd during worship. I just loved watching people swaying and bouncing and raising their hands in praise of our Father. It was crazy encouraging to me, for some reason.

-Matt Nathanson Pandora radio. Again, you are welcome.

-I know a lot of people will disagree, but I’m kind of obsessed with the weather lately. Thunder storms and cloudy skies are my favorite. I belong in Seattle, I tell you. 

the return of the awkward

awkward:
-Let's take a moment and really soak in the new awkward+awesome picture. That mullet. Those glasses. The sequins. Oh, and the clarinet. Literally, the epitome of awkward+awesome.
-Coming to a complete stop at a green light. And then slapping your forehead in perfect "doh" fashion, causing the person stopped at an actual red light to crack up laughing. This brain, you guys.
-How bad I want, no...need, a puppy. I just need something to love and depend on me! Is that really too much to ask?! (cough...J....cough).
-Houston, we have another TV obsession. How am I starting Lost 8 years late?! But I'm so absorbed, I come home from work, change into comfy clothes, and climb in bed to hang out with Jack. Aren't you guys so excited to hear about THAT for the next couple of months?
-Losing my pinterest. This may sound trivial to some, but finding out I was locked out of this amazing empire I had built, with no way to get back in, was devastating. Disproportionately so. The words "my entire wedding is on there!!!" came out of my mouth. And no, not engaged. I gave it a week, mourned the loss, and finally manned up and created a new account yesterday. Awkward part? Going through the boards of my old account and repinning everything like a total crazy person. Yeah. Follow my new one here!

awesome:
-Obviously, the first thing that goes here is all the incredible support I've gotten over the last week. When I say overwhelmed, I don't know if you can fully understand the extent of it. Thank you. Each of you. You keep me running.
-Walking the lakes with the best friend and running into friends from church. While that's awesome on it's own, the best part is that the friends said to each other "that girl is really animated like Blake", only to find out it was, in fact, me.
-Isn't second day hair like...the best thing ever? I love it so much more than first day hair. It just falls so much better and prettier.
-Being back in the wedding business! I really let myself forget how much I love it. But being back and already working with 3 brides just makes my heart so happy. I'm so thankful that I get to have a side job that's my passion!

awkwardandawesomewednesday

awkward:
-I find it a little awkward how much I enjoy Rob Pattinson's contribution to the Twilight soundtrack. His voice makes me happy. Wait. I own the Twilight soundtrack? Frick.
-Also, I'm pretty annoyed that Miley's cover of Bob's "You're Gonna Make Me Lonesome" has grown on me. I no longer want to throw things at the radio when it comes on. What the?
-Neck pain that causes a migraine that causes nausea that causes you to sleep on the bathroom floor.
-Finishing season 4 of BBT and not having season 5. Ok that's not awkward, but how much I freaked out was. That cliffhanger was just not fair, and then I downloaded episode 1 of season 5 on iTunes but it took forever so now I don't know what happened and I'm genuinely panicked about the state of Leonard and Penny's relationship.
-Let me paint a picture for you. Go the salon Saturday morning, sitting at the table, chatting with my lovely hairdresser, and this girl starts talking so loud and obnoxiously about Hollywood and how she used to sing with Demi Lovato and how if she ever has kids she's going to be poppy Vivance like her life depends on it and how Jessica Simpson's fat and I almost punched her in the face. She was everything wrong with the female race.

awesome:
-Seeing my parents twice in one week. Once for lunch Sunday, once for dinner last night. I love them so much.
-I'm talking about music a lot today, I'm not sure why. But, my musical diet lately has been purely Ray La Montagne, Bob Dylan, & Bon Iver. Happy girl.
-New blog obsession: Gal Meets Glam. I pretty much just want to be her. You're welcome.
-I'm just really in love, and love being in love.
-It's official, Kelly Clarkson, Demi Lovato, & Jessica Simpson are my favorites. I just adore them for being themselves, being real about life, and not letting anyone make them hate themselves. You rock those curves ladies. Thank you.
-I'm so obsessed with this song right now. Beside the fact that I'm still convinced I'm going to marry JGL (love you J), it's just genius and catchy! Again, you're welcome.



Cash, money, money, cash, money, money, cash.

you know what today is...

awkward
-That moment when you realize your food order was just the exact same as the man behind you who is about 3 times your size. I'd like a side of guilt and shame too, please?
-The degree to which my head begins to swim when I work on my book. I can write all day, but blueprints? Format? Edit? Design? TITLE?! I-yi-yi! Isn't there a magic genie that specializes in this stuff?
-Speaking of writing my book, when inspiration hits and the chapters start flowing, it is nearly impossible for me to rip myself away from my laptop. And when I do, I'm really spacey and detached because my mind is still writing chapters. Which isn't great for a girl that has a tendency to be spacey and detached at any given moment.
-Sitting in my bed, eating a sandwich, watching Big Bang Theory. And then realizing that this is pretty much what I've done every night for a week. AND the fact that this is the third time BBT has been in my awkwards. 
-The fact that my brain works in a series of raps. I often complete or rhyme things people say with lines from a popular hip-hop song. For example: my boss said "you must know somebody" and my brain went "who knows somebody, who knows somethin' bout it" in Trick Daddy's voice (from "Let's Go"). I guess that's what I get for having a brain full of raps.

awesome
-I'm thinking about moving a little bit further into the wedding planning world again. Not full time, because well, I just can't. But kind of moonlighting on the side more than I am now. So, know someone that needs a super awesome and efficient event consultant/coordinator? Holla atcha girl!
-"Ignition (Remix)" -R.Kelly Pandora radio. Just trust me.
-I've never been a big Madonna fan, but I caught a snippet of her recent interview, and really loved this line she said: "I've never really lived a conventional life, so I think it'd  be foolish of me, and everyone else, to start expecting me to make conventional choices."
-I genuinely couldn't decide whether I wanted to put this under awkward or awesome, but I obviously went with the latter. I was snooping around my blog stats and traffic sources and noticed a large number coming from a catholic forum website. Come to find out, someone posted The Women Who Love Men Who Love Porn there and sparked this huge discussion. Oh hey! That's incredibly random, but I'm all about sparking talk about the awkward stuff. Woo hoo!
-I keep getting texts like this, and the over-whelming joy I experience when I get them is so cool. I guess after being miserable for so long, people are kind of starting to figure out that I am capable of happiness. I'm just really thankful that my joy is evident, and that it all hinges on my relationship with Christ.

awkward + awesome wednesday

awkward:
-On a scale of 1 to 10, how awkward is it that I spent the hours between 5 and 10 last night intermittently watching Big Bang Theory and reading the Mockingjay? That much time spent with Sheldon Cooper can take a real toll on already impaired social skills...
-The moment you realize that your undefeated, number 1 Tigers have quit even trying to win the National Championship about 3 minutes into the second half. And all the really pitiful noises I made the whole game. That's all I have to say about that.
-I've been inexplicably tired since Saturday, and Blake doesn't function well tired. So there have been lots of "huh?"s and completely missing people talking to me and staring into space. My coworkers can't decide if it's funny or annoying. I think they're leaning towards annoying.
-Going out with some girlfriends, having a grand old time, until some man grabs you by the arms as you leave and shouts "why are you leaving?!" in your face. Complete stranger. And then proceeds to follow you to the next bar and creepily stand around until a guy friend scares him off. What the heck?!
-I'm currently trying to sell my car {you know you want to buy it...}, and it has quickly forced me to come to terms with the fact that I'm not so good at small talk with strangers. I speak in these jolting, awkward sentences and do that weird "huh huh" laugh that I've really been trying to make stop. I'm pretty sure that's why no one's bought it....

awesome:
-Will y'all hate me if I say that it's a little awesome that the holidays are over? I feel like my life became an episode of the Twilight Zone on Thanksgiving and didn't return to normal until recently.
-{!!super crazy cheesy sentence alert!!} You know all those cliches you see and hear about falling in love and how you fall in love with someone all over again every day and it makes you a better person and they complete you and blah blah blah? Yeah...they're all true. It's pretty awesome.
-I realized yesterday that almost everyone in my office calls me little bit. "Little bit did that", "where you going little bit?", "oh there's little bit!". I won't lie, I kind of super love it.
-Having resolutions this year that aren't superficial and unrealistic, but actually motivate me to further myself and be the person I want to be. I do really well with goals {I hate failing}. I think 2012's going to be an awesome year.
-All-but-quitting social media. There's more on this coming tomorrow {it's one of my resolutions}, but I have to say, pretty much ceasing use of Twitter and mostly keeping Facebook as an outlet for this blog has been my favorite resolution yet. A simple life, y'all. Simple life.

awkward + awesome wednesday: the pinterest edition

Y'all. My brain is fried {so fried that the first 3 times I typed that I typed "friend"}. I'm tired and not feeling creative or awkward at all. But, thankfully, pinterest never sleeps, so I bring you 

awkward + awesome: the pinterest edition! You can click on any of the pictures to make them larger.

awkward:

awesome:

Oh, and you can follow me on pinterest by following the link up there {that's spelled wrong. cute.} 

awkward + awesome wednesday

awkward:
-J broke his thumb. Like serious, had to have surgery broke it. And how he has this huge cast. That I run into & bump regularly. He really has no hope around me. Our time together consists of him dodging my unintentional attempts to punch him in the hand and me profusely apologizing.
-Y'all, I think my ability to listen to a song on repeat or watch a movie every day is starting to be unhealthy. I can leave the same DVD in the player for a week and watch it every night {usually Beetlejuice or Alice in Wonderland}. Or listen to one song on repeat for like an hour {Currently-"You" by Chris Young}. That's not normal, is it?
-Ok. I've gotten into this terrible habit of licking J's face when I'm feeling weirder than normal. Sometimes he just makes his "you're the weirdest" face at me and let's it go. But other times he waits a little bit and then NINJA licks my face 100 times worse than I did. It's so gross, y'all. Don't worry, we already know we're strange. And awkward.
-Trying on bridesmaids dresses is a little awkward on it's own, right? Add in that you're trying them on after the bride's tall, slender, beautiful, and graceful sister and it's awkward gold. And you know I made it more awkward by walking around like the Hunchback of Notre Dame most the time. And droppin it low in every dress to make sure they were dance-in-able. And making pregnant bellies in all the empire waisted ones {you're welcome for the picture} Thank goodness my best friend already loves me and made me her MOH.

awesome:
-I keep having these overwhelming "I'm so ridiculously blessed" moments that literally stop me in my tracks. This job, my home, my family, J, J's family. Sometimes I just have to take a second.
-Having J with me at Christmas was pretty much one of the most awesome parts of my year. I just love that dude. Ok. Gush fest over. I'm sorry.
-Have you seen the movie Super 8? Probably not. You should rent it.
-I'm such a huge fan of making J laugh. And it's so easy! Last night we laid around talking and goofing off and he was just rolling. And idk, that just leaves my heart real full.
-This song, on repeat. Add Josh Turner? Swoon.

awkward + awesome

awkward:
-Last week I got all amped about Rotollo's calzones, convinced J to go, and then ate the ENTIRE thing. I thought I was going to die. As we walked out the restaurant I groaned "Ahhhh I'm sooo full" right in some man's face that was walking in. Hi, I'm the queen of awkward. Nice to meet you.
-This weather is the wooooorrrrst. Can I get an amen? 75° in December is straight up unacceptable. Plus the mugginess is making me feel like my hair is wet all the time. Gross.
-So Monday night J and I both had copious amounts of cleaning & laundry to do at our respective houses, so we resolved to not hang out. I walked into the hallway after coming home to change and realized I was wearing blue plaid pajama pants, my raccoon wearing a scarf sweater, pink slippers, & my hair on top of my head. I walked by my roommates room and she laughed. My ability to be awkward with out trying astounds me.
-I eat way too fast. It's a fact that has been a part of me since I was a child. My parents used to daily tell me "your food isn't going anywhere, Blake. Slow down." And now, when I choke on stuff because I'm inhaling,  J just looks at me and goes "eaaassy". It's embarrassing and endearing. I'm pretty much 6 and don't know how to eat without choking.
-Is it bad that I'm almost ready for Christmas to be over so people will stop asking if we're getting engaged for Christmas? And yes, I know that this is the second time this topic has been in awkwards. C'est la vie.

awesome:
-Every once in a while I get super overwhelmed by peoples' reception of my blog. Like, tears and heart racing and deep breaths. And then I get even more overwhelmed as I thank God for the opportunity to speak some truth into peoples' lives with what He teaches me. So, to every person who reads, comments, reposts, retweets, texts, etc-thank you. Deeply, sincerely. It makes it easier to be transparent when you're so encouraged all the time.
-I'm starting to play with the idea of writing a book. So yeah...there's that.
-How wonderful is the new awkward + awesome picture? Yes.
-I have a recently acquired affinity for yoga {& by yoga I mean the 30 minute DVD I bought like a year ago} & my "ambient/new age" Pandora station. I'm attempting to join the centered movement & learn how to slow down a little bit. Next step-learn how to meditate & go to hot yoga. I'll keep you updated.

-I won these babies during our community group's white elephant game last night. I had to puppy dog eye and beg a few people not to steal them from me, but I emerged victorious. And I love them.

awkward + awesome

awkward:
-Let me just tell you about my morning right quick. Get up, get dressed, throw hair in a bun because I'm lazy. Go downstairs, pull 2 eggs out of the carton and put the pan on the stove. Eggs roll off of counter & smash on floor. While cleaning that up, I realize whatever was on the pan previously is smoking like crazy. Turn around to turn the stove off and knock a full glass of Dr. Pepper from the night before on the floor, counter, and walls. Turn stove off. Sit on floor & stare at the mess that has happened in the last 10 seconds. Start over.
-I really could just leave today's awkward at the first item, but there's more. How about how deep my love for New Girl's  Schmidt is beginning to run. Like my super witty {& equally in love with Schmidt} friend said, "if loving Schmidt is wrong, I don't want to be right".
-Grocery shopping alone at night at Wal Mart on Siegen. I literally fear for my life the entire time. And yes, I'm aware of the fact that that makes me sound like a bad person, but y'all that place is scary. I think I'm going to stick to making J go with me.
-You know what, I'm going to say it. The number of people who day-to-day ask me when J and I are getting married. And by people, I don't mean the ones who are close to us and care about us. I'm talking the complete randos that have no understanding of privacy. And it's bad y'all. I'm talking almost every day.


awesome:
-That today is my first day of work since last Thursday. 5 days of blissfully relaxing vacation.
-My refrigerator is covered in Christmas cards & save-the-dates, & it makes me so ridiculously giddy. And feel pretty adult.
-I think this year might have been the best birthday I've ever had. A pretty dress, lots of dancing, & so much laughing. Thanks so much to everyone who made it great!
-I'm starting to kind of rock at my job. Today, I helped some guys construct a blueprint for a hydraulic system for a paper mill. Yea, I'm a hustla.

awkward + awesome wednesday

Awkward:
-Getting caught spitting rhyme along with Cam'ron in my car. Full on. I'm sorry I know all the words to Hey Ma & it's one of my favorite songs. Stop judging me with your eyes!
-I may or may not have also been dancing along with Hey Ma. In my defense, it was dark outside. And that song just makes me move.
-The incredibly whiny voice I did earlier today when I was frustrated with an order. My coworker looked at me and just said "are you serious? stop it." So embarassing.
-You know when you get really excited that one of your friend's kids is walking towards you and you crouch down and open up your arms and they go around you? That's always fun.
-How do uncles miraculously obtain the ability to be so awkward & inappropriate? And while it wasn't too awkward for me, there were a couple of moments the past couple of days that I think J wanted to die after his uncles opened their mouths.


Awesome:
-That today is my last full day of work for 5 days. That's right, starting tomorrow at noon, I'm off through Tuesday. Is that the Hallelujah chorus I hear?
-Birthday weekend full of plans to just hang out with friends that I don't always get to see.
-I can honestly say I never thought I'd be one of those girls whose mom was her best friend, but I am. My mama's my best friend. I love it and it's awesome.
-While the circumstances really, really sucked, it was really nice to get to be around J's family this week. They are just a fantastic group of people who make me feel more loved than any boyfriend's family ever has.
-Did I mention my parent's are giving me a new car? Yes sir. And while the Corolla has served me exceptionally well for the last 6 years, someone needs to buy it from me stat.

awkward + awesome: the "oh god, i'm jess from 'new girl'" edition

Yay awkward + awesome! A nice little mid-week break from the serious posts I've been hitting y'all with. God's just doing a lot and I feel compelled to share. Tomorrow's a pretty good one too :)

Awkward:
-Coughing all over your boyfriend when he's trying to be sweet & cuddle. And I mean all over.
-Stairs + socks = nearly busting it in front of your roommate. But the laugh after was amazing.
-It's recently come to my attention that I'm terrible about telling J "see ya!" or "lata" & walking away w/out a kiss or I love you. & while I feel bad, what can I say, I'm in love with my best bro.
-The fact that the statements "why am I not famous yet?" & "this is why I need an assistant" both came out of my mouth yesterday. Holy brat alert.
-Accidently slipping into my British accent on the phone with a CUSTOMER. Thankfully he laughed, but seriously Blake?
-10 minutes in line behind ONE person to pick up a prescription? Is there a category for "outrageous" here?!
-This is more of a question than a statement, but just how awkward is it for 19 year old Demi Lovato to be my hero? Super awkward?
-Sometimes {especially when I'm medicated as I have been all week} I slip into this trance and just start talking. About nothing. And I stare when I do it. And sometimes use accents {I have got to get that under control}. I did this to J 3 times when we were hanging out Monday night. Thank goodness for a man who loves me because I'm weird.

Awesome:
-Have you ever had that moment where you're watching a show or movie and all the sudden you go "AH!! That's me!!!" and realize they've managed to fit all your oddities into a character? Jess from "New Girl" was my moment. And I don't say that in a toot my own horn way. It's more in a I watched with my mouth gaping open as Jess said & did things I do on a daily basis that embarass my friends & J way. For example:


-Realizing that this week a year ago started the darkest, hardest 4 month period of my life, and being able to look at how far God has brought me with pure joy. More on that tomorrow :)
-A house that Christmas threw up all over, and roommates that are just as excited about it as I am.
-A week filled with lunches and dinners with my favorite ladies.
-This is blurry and weird and a funky font, but it made me laugh so out loud I scared my coworker.

I'm going to blow up the whole world.

awkward + awesome wednesday

Awkward:
-The fact that this weekend, when discussing "their song", my mother thought theirs was Josh Turner's "Long Black Train". I popped my head up and asked "y'all's song is about boarding a train to hell??". After everyone started breathing again from laughing so hard, it was discovered their song is "Why Don't We Just Dance?" Not quite the same, mom :)
-Wearing red lipstick and drinking out of a cup. I don't care how many years I've been wearing it, I always have this fear that it's going to rub all over my face in the process. Am I the only one?
-Trying to swipe a mosquito off of someone's head and them thinking you're trying to slap them instead. Especially when it's your boyfriend and you're in the middle of a serious discussion. Violence is not the answer...
-You know that scene in Mean Girls where Tina Fey tries to take off her sweater and her undershirt sticks to it? Yeah. Welcome to my life. *head desk* *head desk* *head desk*

Awesome:
-Three days at home this weekend, most of which was spend in the same spot on the couch. Oh, sweet relaxation.
-Talking to your best friend all day via GChat & texting, and then having lunch with her.
-The fact that now, anytime anyone sees any cute thing in Navajo print, they tell me about it. I love that people associate me with the things I'm obsessed with. Also, I buy most of them. Except that one uber expensive rug...that I've still got my eye on.
-Vacation days. Between November 14th and the 1st of the year, I have 10 days off. TEN. I just scheduled 3 & 1/2 days off around my birthday. I can't even explain how giddy I am about it.
-Immortals. With the boyfriend. I haven't been this ridiculous about a movie since....I don't know when. Harry Potter?
-My parents giving me 4 boxes of hot chocolate. All different flavors. Excited doesn't cover it.

Awkward & Awesome Wednesday!

Awkward:
-You know those days where you're just not comfortable? Like...your clothes are just killing you and all you want is to go home and put on sweats and a tshirt.
-How much I hate Courntey Stodden. I know, I really need to pray about it. But look, girl...you're really ruining it for all of us woman who don't want to be seen a pieces of meat. Get off twitter, put some clothes on, quit talking about sex with your incredibly creepy, 51-year-old husband, and GO BACK TO HIGH SCHOOL!
-The moment in the LSU game when everyone thought we'd scored the winning touchdown and started freaking out, only to find out the player had stepped out of bounds. We all sheepishly looked at each other and wished we could take back the screaming and high fives.
-This is less "awkward" and more just "sucky", but um...the men who yell at me on the phone because I'm not giving them the information they want fast enough. It just really bums me out.

Awesome:
-The throwing of paper balls across the office. Even more awesome? Perfectly aiming one right into your coworker's lap who just answered the phone. And then watching her apologize profusely to the client on the other end.
-9 hours of sleep. 'Nuff said.
-The incredible rain storm that blew through last night. I kind of love it when they wake me up so I can fall asleep to the sound of rain.
-Getting to talk to my sweet friend who's on the World Race right now. Thank God for technology, huh?! Even more awesome, the fact that he was able to speak overwhelming amounts of truth into my life across the world.
-This:

Awkward & Awesome Wednesday!

Awkward:
-Throwing up in the toilet your roommate just cleaned. I mean, really, throwing up is awkward-period. But in a just cleaned toilet? "Excuse me, I'll have misery with a side of guilt, please?"
-When boyfriends get upset. Not with you {which is ideal}, but there's nothing you can do to make it better except to give them a little space. The "fixer" in me hates this.
-The "Lunch & Learn" meeting we had at work Monday. The woman spent 30 minutes teaching a group of grown adults how to use non-confrontational speech and how to breathe in through your nose and out through your mouth to calm down. Oh! Really? Thanks for that.
-The little elf dance I just did to try and cheer my coworker who is super not happy about Christmas music starting in the office. It was one of my more awkward elfen dances. & yes, I'm implying I've done that more than once.
-I think it's way too funny when people fall down. Like, unhealthily funny. So when the coworker at the desk next to me missed her chair and ended up on the floor, I totally lost it. Thankfully she was laughing too, but the tears running down my face made me look a little ridiculous.

Awesome:
-I'm really tempted to just put LSU v. Bama in T-Minus 4 days right here, but that's a cop out. So I'll just make it number 1.
-You see that new, cool little blue button on the right? That's right, ya girl's officially on the Fashion & Faith blogger list. What's up!! Thanks to everyone who encouraged me to go for it, you were right :) {Have no idea what I'm talking about? Click on the button or check out this to see what I'm talking about}
-Needtobreathe tickets! After the show was sold out! I pretty much have the greatest psudo-big sister ever.
-New readers & new blogs to read! I'm so glad I got involved with follower fest. My Google Reader must feel like it's about to explode!
-Lunch with my boo {Is it awkard that I call him my boo? Probably.}
-This: {& to clarify, I'm aware I blog about babies often. You try having a bajillion friends with babies that you love and not blogging about it. Impossible.}