tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14113534639651906032024-03-28T04:27:53.316-05:00the everyday guichetsBlakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.comBlogger196125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-44179691008997497452015-02-13T11:51:00.000-06:002016-03-18T11:52:02.476-05:00<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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My main man here turned 31 this weekend. We celebrated by ditching real life for a NOLA get-away. I love having a soulful city right at our fingertips for such occasions. We laid in bed for half of the day and had a National Lampoon marathon (because that's what you do when you turn 31). And then we dinner and a movie, fancy edition, and were in bed at our hotel room by 10:30. Bam. Sunday was rainy so we did the aquarium (because that's also what you do when you turn 31), and then it was back to reality.</div>
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<br />Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-74786557253150163322013-07-18T14:07:00.002-05:002016-03-17T19:39:26.163-05:00one day, baby.Recently, J and I gave away the humongous sleigh bed that was over taking
our back bedroom. It was his before we got married, so it dipped in the middle
from all the years of being slept on smack dab in the center. After we got
married, we slept in it for about 2 weeks before we were off to the mattress
store for a brand spankin' new king sized dream of a bed. So the bachelor bed
got banished to the guest bedroom to have stuff shoved under it and around it
and piled on top of it, until we finally decided it had to go. The same week we
decided to gut out our guest bathroom and start over. So there are a lot of
tangible changes going on in the Guichet household. J offered to move the huge
mirror that was over the sink in the bathroom that I always got ready in to the
back bedroom, so that I'd still have a place to do my hair and make-up and such
girly things. <br />
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When we got married and started making plans for the house, it was always
understood that the back bedroom would eventually turn into a nursery. Since
then, it’s become a storage unit for old wedding stuff, a guest bedroom, and
now (apparently) a dressing room. But this is the first time it’s been
regularly inhabited, especially by yours truly. So as I sat in the room a
couple of mornings ago, sleepily putting on mascara, it suddenly hit me. <br />
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One day, God willing, a little soul is going to call this room theirs.
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Someday, if God has children in the cards for us, I’m going to groggily trudge across
the hall to this very room to soothe a fussy newborn. <br />
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a sweet baby back from the hospital. <br />
This is where we’ll change diapers and
laugh and cry and be a family.<br />
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As I laid back and stared at the ceiling, my
heart became overwhelmed with joy and pre-emptive thankfulness. I began praying
for the little baby that we so hope God has for us one day. I began praying for
baby Guichet’s conception, that it would be quick and easy (because I’m pretty
sure we’re allowed to go to the throne that boldly). I prayed that if it’s not,
that we would never cease to know God’s faithfulness. I began praying for their
little fingers and toes and nose and ears and eyes. I began praying that they
would come to know their Savior at an early age. I prayed for my heart and J’s
heart, that we would begin to be prepared for whatever God brings our way right
now. Before I knew it, I’d been laying on the floor praying for a baby that
does not yet exist for an hour. But it was the most beautiful, sweet, meaningful
time for me and God that that hopefully one day baby. And it just reminded me how awesome spending extended, uninterrupted time with Jesus is. Why don't I do that more often? It also reminded me that I don't just have to talk to him about the tangible, right now things. He loves my day dreams and hopes just as much as I do. I need to remember to share them with Him regularly. <br />
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{<em>disclaimer: not pregnant. not even a little. I know, this is how rumors start.}</em>Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-3987406384529350742013-07-01T14:42:00.000-05:002013-07-07T15:23:44.618-05:00 #mondaygrats<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<li>A God who knows how many grains of sand are on the beach I spent the weekend laying on.</li>
<li>Baby laughs, snuggles, "I love yous", & lunging into your arms. And friends who let you hog their kids.</li>
<li>Being married to a man who makes me <strong><em>want</em></strong> to leave the glory of the beach to get back to him. Serious butterflies over here about seeing hims tonight.</li>
<li>A best friend who doesn't look at you like you're nuts when you're balling your eyes out, over something trivial, out of no where. And is just generally awesome. </li>
<li>The-best-friend-who-lives-in-Haiti comes back this month. And hub's birthday is this month. As well as my mama's. So many things to celebrate!</li>
<li>A 4 day work week.</li>
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Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-55515969530618279132013-06-26T13:05:00.000-05:002013-06-26T14:41:34.252-05:00awkward + awesomeawkward:<br />
-I work at a gym, if you didn't already know. One of the most frustrating parts of my job is when someone piles four 45 lb plates on a machine, uses it, and then leaves it that way. You're telling me you can lift that with your legs but can't manage to take them off when you're done?! Beside the point. The awkward part was when I jokingly pointed to a fully stacked machine and said to a regular "you totally left this like that, didn't you?" No, but the guy standing directly to my left did. And he got reeaaaal offended. Foot, mouth. <br />
-I am (still) entirely too absorbed by this whole Jodi Arias circus. To the point that I TiVo'd her Lifetime movie. And the after show. And kept J up past his bedtime educating him about the trial (for the 100th time). <br />
-Trying to have a consult with a potential member with 4 other people in the room. Learned the hard way Monday that I am no bueno at that. Lot's of <em>ums</em> and <em>uhs</em> and I'm pretty sure I only gave her about 30% of the information I usually do. And then everyone made fun of me when she left. Thanks guys.<br />
-The little dance I've made up to <em>Blurred Lines</em>. Well, the dance itself is pretty awesome. Getting caught performing it by the car next to me, not as much. (Why are so many of my awkward stories car oriented?!)<br />
-One more work awkward: yesterday, while helping my boss take down some bars, one swung and basically impaled me where I stood. Knocked the breath straight out of me. And there's video. So I'm sitting in my office with tears running down my face I'm laughing so hard. If it was better quality, I'd upload it for you. <br />
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-Forcing the entire gym to listen to Justin Timberlake Pandora today. And a guy just did the "Bye Bye Bye" move. You know which one I'm talking about. <br />
-Who's taking two weekend vacations in a row?! This girl. Who has the best boss on the planet for letting her have two Fridays off in a row?! This girl. <br />
-<a href="http://pinterest.com/pin/267964246551312310/" target="_blank">This.</a> You're welcome. (But the noise I made when I saw it the first time definitely belongs under awkward...)<br />
-Getting to spend the entire weekend with J last weekend. Friday: wedding, Saturday: historic downtown BR tour (because we're complete nerds), Sunday: lunch with my parents, weird movie marathon (Minority Report, Equilibrium, etc), and church. This never happens, people. And it was glorious. <br />
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{also, if you're mourning the loss of Google Reader, go <a href="http://www.bloglovin.com/blog/3032607/?claim=vqm7344kgza" target="_blank">follow</a> Fearless on BlogLovin!}Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-36394568906810413982013-06-20T13:32:00.002-05:002013-06-20T13:32:44.308-05:007 ways Harper's preparing me for motherhood<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Everyone, I'd like you to meet my little girl. This is Harper. She's pretty terrible, but we love her.<br />
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We found her on Craiglist when mama really wanted a puppy and daddy's couldn't say no anymore. I am well aware that motherhood is much more than taking care of a dog. God willing, kids are in the future for J and I. But until then-I feel pretty comfortable saying that Harper's practice enough for now.<br />
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1. Homegirl is under my feet 24/7. Which feels like the canine translation of "whatcha cookin mom?", "what's that mama?", "can I have that?"<br />
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2. "No Harper" clearly means "please keep putting your nose in my food". She's not exactly the greatest listener.<br />
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3. Trying to do something <b>for</b> her always, always turns into WWIII. Like trying to get something out of her eye. J's holding her down, I'm holding her eye open, we're both trying to get it out of her eye while she nips at us.<br />
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4. Harper has a super laid back, sweet hearted older brother, Hagen. And she is contantly up in that dude's face. Therefore, the two of them fight like...dogs. So I'm pretty much a professional referee.<br />
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5. If things get quiet, it's time to get worried. If I'm in the back of the house, and they're in the front of the house, and I don't hear them fighting, it means they've figured out how to get into something and tear it apart.<br />
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6. She scares the crap out of me. I've always hoped to be a pretty laid back mom. But let Harper limp a little bit on her way back in the house, and it's time to go to the vet.<br />
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7. I awoke this morning to a crying dog who had pooped in her kennel, and subsequently walked in it. I feel like that one pretty much explains itself. {sidenote: when your kid has a dirty diaper, does the entire house smell?! Because Harper's carries and hangs out. Thank God for Tyler Candles.}Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-8073479257645169432013-06-03T17:46:00.000-05:002013-06-03T17:46:15.453-05:00#mondaygrats<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I talked about gratitudes before, but I can't find that post at the moment. And let's be honest, I don't feel like digging for it. So, <i>recap</i>: the #gratitudes hashtag came to be a few years ago when a woman from my church (whom I love dearly) started using it to share the things she was grateful for. It caught on and soon became a way to bring light to the social media world and to remind others that there's always something to be thankful for.<br />
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<li>That being said, having husband home. Life's just not the same without your best friend.</li>
<li>Circle E's Hawaiian Pineapple candle. So good.</li>
<li>Therapeutic venting sessions, and the friends that will listen to them.</li>
<li>A job that I don't dread going to when the weekend is over.</li>
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Forever consumed by what people think of me, my actions, my opinions. <i>You don't like me simply because that's your bitchy decision for the day? </i>Life = ruined. Can we please sit down and have a long, drawn-out, emotional conversation about it where I apologize for things I haven't done and beg you to be my friend even though you've never done anything for me? I really need that right now. It'd be even more great if we could be good for like a week, and then I could grovel at your feet again. </div>
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There is most definitely a time to apologize. There's a time to repair damage-done. And then there's a time to realize...<i>ya know? I really just don't have time for this. </i>I don't have time to chase you. I don't have time to have a meltdown over how you feel about me. I'm out.</div>
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It was a big lesson for me when a learned to take people with a grain of salt. To remember that everyone has hard times. That sometimes I'm not exactly Cinderella all the time. And hard times inevitably spill into your day-to-day interactions. But I don't have to put up with it.</div>
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Wake up tomorrow morning, and remind yourself of how wonderful your life is. Make a running list of every blessing. <i>The roof over my head, the Jesus who loves me unendingly, the friends that never leave my side, the husband I can't believe is mine</i>. And when someone else's negative threatens to darken your day, repeat after me:</div>
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<br />Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-40371433067986763132013-05-24T12:53:00.001-05:002013-05-24T18:49:25.068-05:00shields moving announcements [design]Remember that time I had my first paying design job? That was cool.<br />
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I guess you could say I am tip-toeing my way into the design world. I continue to find ways to talk myself out of it [i.e. <i>"there are so many people that are so much better at this than you", "you're not really <b>that</b> talented"</i>, etc]-but I have also recently acquired a loving husband who believes in me and my talents, and isn't great at taking <i>no, I'm scared!</i> for an answer.<br />
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So, I present to you my first paying, public design job [& it's second and third place]. Be nice.<br />
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Whew. I'm glad that's over with. Speaking of design, yay for yet another <b>fearless</b> redesign, yeah? So there it is. Definitely feel free to contact me if you're in the market for some paper products! [blake.guichet@gmail.com]</div>
Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-71151448876021913342013-05-22T13:05:00.000-05:002013-05-22T13:23:36.496-05:00awkward + awesome<strong>awkward:</strong><br />
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-How long it's been since I've blogged. Ya know, I don't even know what to tell you about that.<br />
-Falling asleep at a red light. Yes, you read that correctly. Migraine from hell + no sleep = people honking at me because I "closed my eyes" for a split second. Frick.<br />
-Asking a person who "slyly" walked in with a member at the gym if they have a membership of their own. "So....do you have a membership?" "Oh yeah! I just forgot my card!" "Okay! What's your name? I'll just look you up." <em>Turns around and walks away....</em><br />
<em>-</em>Camping out in the frame aisle at Target. Literally sitting on the floor with three different frames in front of me, trying to decide which I want. <em>Oh, I'm sorry. Did you need to get in here?</em><br />
-The amazingly awkward "huh huh" laugh I've started doing when things get intense/serious/tense. Surprisingly enough, it does not make things less awkward. I have to get that under control.<br />
-Feeling like I'm a super-wife because I made dinner BEFORE going to work, and all we have to do is stick it in the oven when we get home! Oh, except that I didn't read the directions all the way and you have to cook it for 3 hours. So...dinner will be ready at 11, hon.<br />
-<a href="http://i1365.photobucket.com/albums/r758/bguichet/photo2_zps702237c6.jpg" target="_blank">This</a> is how I force Harper to snuggle with me. She's definitely in her terrible-twos-I-want-nothing-to-do-with-my-mom phase. Hate it.
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-I got a new car! Not awkward. But yelling at the voice control to connect bluetooth for the 500th time and the person next to you in traffic looking at you all worried-like? Awkward. CONNECT. PAIR. AUDIO. OHMYGOSHCMON.<br />
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</strong><strong>-</strong>Curls that last through the day, red lipstick, clear skies, accidental duck face, and happy Saturdays. [see photo]<br />
<strong>-</strong>December trip to Disney World? Yes please! Turning 25 in Magic Kingdom? Double yes please!!<br />
-Husband telling you he has to work late and then actually getting home before you.<br />
-I heart keeping up on current events. I even more heart that my job, at times, allows me to sit on the floor of the gym and watch the news and discuss with patrons. <br />
-Glitter nail polish. And glitter photo shoots. And still being covered in glitter 3 days after said shoot.<br />
-First. Paying. Design. Job. Ohmagah. Still doesn't feel real? <em>You mean you're going to pay me to do something that I love to do during my free time? Uh...ok!</em><br />
-Thinking about returning to blogging, and the little butterflies it gives me.Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-50635231051966793112013-01-24T13:05:00.003-06:002013-06-26T22:00:21.905-05:00lagniappe<br />
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";"><em>This one is
for my unmarried friends, because if you're married you've probably figured this
out already.</em> <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">TMI moment: I
have a healthy sex drive on me. Pretty much always have. The kind that always
wanted to push boundaries when in a dating relationship, and a lot of the time
did. For a long time the idea of getting married had too much to do with getting
to have sex. It wasn't everything, but it was a lot. Here and there people
would reiterate that it's not the most important thing in a relationship. And I
believed them; it's not the most important thing. But let me tell you, it was
up there.<br />
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Even when I started dating J, this is the mentality I had. But as I fell more
and more in love with my best friend, it was like the cloud of sexuality began
to lift. It wasn't all I could see anymore. What I <em>could</em> see was that a life with this
man was the best thing I could ever hope for, and that if we didn't ever have sex for the rest of our lives, I'd be perfectly okay with that. That a life with him by my side,
having my back, & holding me up, was better than the most rockin sex life anybody
could ever have. After we got engaged, we started looking for a quote or a verse that we would stand on as we walked into marriage. Enter John Piper's <em>a Momentary Marriage</em>.</span><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">T</span><span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif";">his is the quote we had read during our wedding ceremony. It perfectly speaks our hope and prayer not only for our marriage, but for the current and future
marriages of those whose lives we touch. The bolded line is what syncs up
perfectly with this post. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 11pt;">“Marriage
is not mainly about prospering economically; it is mainly about displaying the
covenant-keeping love between Christ and his church.<b> </b><span style="word-wrap: break-word;">Knowing Christ is more important than making a
living. Treasuring Christ is more important than bearing children. </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">Being united to Christ by faith is a
greater source of material success than perfect sex and double-income
prosperity.</b> So it is with marriage. It is a momentary git. It may last a
lifetime, or may be snatched away on the honeymoon. Either way, it is short. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; font-size: 11pt;">It may have many bright days, or it may be
covered with clouds. If we make secondary things primary, we will be embittered
at the sorrows we must face. But if we set our face to make of marriage mainly
what God designed it to be, no sorrows and no calamities can stand in our way.
Every one of them will be, not an obstacle to success, but a way to succeed. <span style="word-wrap: break-word;">The beauty of the covenant-keeping love between
Christ and his church shines brightest when nothing but Christ can sustain it."</span></span></div>
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So walk away with this: sex is important, but it's not everything. Do I want to
pounce on my husband every time he walks in the room? Yes. Is that necessary and healthy? Yes. But more than that I
want to spend the rest of my life loving him and learning how to love him
better. Serving him, walking beside him, growing together. Our marriage reflecting the Gospel and Christ's selfless love for us is the most important thing about my marriage. It's not the fun trips, it's not the money, it won't be kids, and it isn't sex. It's Jesus. And loving each other the way He love us. <br />
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I just wanted to share that. Disregard it, tuck it away, do with it as you
will. I just want you to fall in love with your best friend. I want sex to play
second fiddle to the amazing, Christ centered relationship you are in. I wanted
to be lagniappe. Super awesome lagniappe, but lagniappe.</span></div>
Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-80815218361700261172012-07-17T12:26:00.000-05:002012-07-17T12:26:25.236-05:00being tender & open is beautiful.<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><strong>"Being tender and open is beautiful. </strong>As a woman, I feel
continually shhh’ed. Too sensitive. Too mushy. Too wishy washy. Blah
blah. Don’t let someone steal your tenderness. Don’t allow the
coldness and fear of others to tarnish your perfectly vulnerable beating
heart. Nothing is more powerful than allowing yourself to truly be
affected by things. Whether it’s a song, a stranger, a mountain, a rain
drop, a tea kettle, an article, a sentence, a footstep…feel it all –
look around you- all of this is for you. Take it and have
gratitude. Give it and feel love."</i></div>
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I've never considered myself a cold or hard person. Actually, it probably would be fair to say I can be overly emotional at times. In the wise words of Kristen Bell, "if I'm not between a 3 and a 7 on the emotional scale, I'm crying". The person I truly am adheres to the above quote daily, which is probably why it's my favorite.Tears tend to be my natural reaction to things, whether it be beauty or pain, happiness or hurt. I am the definition of an empath, and I actually love getting to feel <i>everything</i>. I like to think I've traveled far from the girl with <a href="http://blakebollinger.blogspot.com/2010/06/lines-in-sand.html">no boundaries at all</a>, and that I live my life in a healthy balance between open & tender, and safe & smart. <br />
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But after enough blows to the heart with a metaphorical baseball bat, even the softest person can learn to be hard. Coldness is learned. Detachment is developed. Enough people hurt you, and you learn to answer it with "whatever. it's fine." You get to a point at which you're too tired to fight anymore. You're so beaten down you don't have the energy to feel it all. You know what I mean? Everyone's been right where I'm talking about.<br />
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I just have two simple points that I want to get across. <br />
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1. Everyone is fighting a battle of some kind. You have no idea. None. Even if you think you do, you probably don't. Please don't be the metaphorical baseball bat in someone's life. They don't need the help. Attempt to live your life in a way that is filled with grace & understanding. Be a safe place. Don't steal others' tenderness. Don't let your own crap overflow into everyone around you's lives and tarnish them. Learn to process, learn to deal, learn to let people you trust walk through life with you. But don't use your own personal battle to drag everyone down with you.<br />
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2. Everyone is fighting a battle of some kind. You have no idea. None. So don't let the fact that they can't control themselves or deal with it healthily change who <i>you</i> are. Don't let them make you cold. Don't let the blows over the head make you stay down. Don't let them make your answers to things become <i>whatever, it's fine</i>. Be <i><b>strong</b></i> enough to be tender and open, because it takes a special kind of strength to choose to live that way.<b> Please don't ever stop being affected by the things of this life. It's a beautiful thing.</b> Feel it. Let it in. LIVE, for crying out loud. Don't pass through this life like a robot in armor, unaffected by the beauty of relationships and change and the simple things. <br />
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That's all I have to say about that. I think most of us at times adhere to both of those categories of people, the baseball bats & the wounded. I know I do.<br />
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Alright. I'm off to cry at another episode of Dawson's Creek.Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-38078380101377099312012-06-26T22:40:00.000-05:002012-06-26T22:44:33.066-05:00bless the broken road.You know. Like the cheesy country song.<br />
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What a winding, broken road I have walked to bring me to this place in my life. I can't look back without smiling a little bit, that knowing kind of smile that people get on their faces when they think of something that shaped them, painful or not. My entire road has shaped me into the woman I am this moment. Every person I passed on the road, or walked on it with for a little while, helped shape me. And helped get me here. Every person who tried to steer me down their road, or deter me from walking mine, they made me stronger and helped get me here.<br />
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My road is not pretty to look back on. It is fraught with passing relationships and heartbreak and embarrassing stories and bad decisions. If I chose to let it, my road could easily be something about myself that I spend a lot of energy burying. Pretending it didn't happen. Erasing. I can choose to look back on the years I spent dating people that aren't J, and wish I could get them back. I can steer the conversation otherwise when old boyfriends come up. I can hold onto bitterness for the boys who broke my heart. I can spend all my time looking back at how narrow and winding and exhausting and broken my road is,<br />
or I can love it.<br />
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I can own it. I can use it as a way to walk the road with other girls and possibly help theirs not be quite as broken. And this obviously doesn't just apply to dating. The sooner we can see our mistakes and missteps as opportunities to walk more closely and to be more raw with one another, the sooner the Deceiver loses his hold of shame on us. I've done things I shouldn't have done, dated boys I shouldn't have dated, given into temptations I shouldn't have given into. I've lied and stolen and abused and manipulated and struggled and hated. Like I said, it's not pretty. But it's redeemed. And the days I can put aside my pride and live like an open book, Satan's one pissed off dude. He wants us to look back on our roads and be filled with despair and humiliation. He loves it when we're embarrassed enough to keep our roads to ourselves. Or to only see our roads as broken, and not also blessed. Can you imagine if all the women of the world started having each others' backs? If Girl World was a safe place to tell each other what's happened or what's going on, and to have someone tell you they've done the same exact thing, no judgment at all? The change brought on by that kind of transparency would be radical. I've digressed from the original point, but you hear me, sisters.<br />
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Forgive me if I'm cheesy or sentimental, but having this diamond ring on my finger that means I get to spend the rest of my life with my best friend just makes me unashamedly sappy & causes me to adhere to every cliche in the book: every person who has broken my heart along the way, really was a "northern star" pointing me straight to J. I didn't always feel that way, but I do now. Every mistake I made, every thing that I've done that I should be absolutely mortified by, is a part of my road. The boy that just broke your heart really is a northern star. That thing that didn't work out the way you wanted it to, God's using it to move your steps towards his plans for you. Everything that seems wrong, every broken dream, is a part of your road. And one day, maybe not soon, but eventually, you'll get to this place where you'll get to look back on the length of your road and smile knowingly.<br />
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And you'll set your face towards the future, and know that it's going to continue to be broken and messy and full of confusion, but that it's all worth it in the end.Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-20146359714697334842012-04-20T08:21:00.000-05:002012-04-20T13:20:49.450-05:00365 days<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjNRBWw9Zmy5NgYvEitM_UI03qANRbopO8e0AG1gIFEcPgTlZtTtoF-mrWRWhvBysAE3v108lz2mjpcHwYYNGv5ioh8lxGBnEy8iv156ZtBwaRo4Ah6HAXPzgwQeXebQsm7HwCljRdKbNZ7/s1600/title.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="153" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjNRBWw9Zmy5NgYvEitM_UI03qANRbopO8e0AG1gIFEcPgTlZtTtoF-mrWRWhvBysAE3v108lz2mjpcHwYYNGv5ioh8lxGBnEy8iv156ZtBwaRo4Ah6HAXPzgwQeXebQsm7HwCljRdKbNZ7/s320/title.jpg" width="320" /> </a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div>A year ago today, I sat in a truck in a driveway and listened to the boy I loved tell me it was over. I already knew it had been over for a long time, but hearing it out loud is just a whole different ballgame. <br />
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A year ago today, I got in my car and cried my way from Baton Rouge to Covington, where I sat on my parents' front porch and answered phone call after phone call of friends, calling to check on me. Each one with the same amount of relief and thankfulness in their voice, but each with the grace not to say it out loud just yet.<br />
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A year ago today, I decided I wanted to be single for a very, very long time. I knew that I was already overwhelmingly healed, because God had been preparing my heart for a while already, but I just didn't even want to get tangled up in someone's mess again. I wanted time to just be me. I was wrong. Little did I know, someone who makes me more me than I've ever been was waiting right around the corner.<br />
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A year ago today, God opened more doors in my life than he ever had before. Suddenly, my life had so much potential it made my head swim. And even though one <b>huge</b> door had just slammed in my face, I didn't even have time to look at it. All these doors in my life <i>swung</i> open, just begging me to walk through one of them. In a split second, I regained so much of myself I kind of didn't know what to do. I regained the ability to be the woman I knew I wanted to be, and who God wanted me to be. I wasn't stuck anymore. And in that moment that should have been completely consumed by fear and pain, all I felt was <b>hope</b>. Hope for my future. And hope for others'.<br />
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It didn't take me long to realize that I was meant to walk through this for a reason. God pretty quickly showed me that all the pain and fights and confusion were for a purpose. That down the road, I'd be holding hands with some girl who was talking about her relationship and all the things that she feels, and I'd be able to say "I totally understand how you feel", and not be fibbing. <br />
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God really does have the power to change any situation. Any person. He really does have the power to take crap situations that you don't understand, that you wish would change, and turn them around for his glory. He does it every day. And that's my point in sharing this. That if you're in a situation that feels hopeless, it's not. That if the words "never" and "always" are a big part of your vocabulary right now, they won't be for long. Every time passes. God's hand is everywhere. And I know all of this sounds really "Christian talk" and cliche, but it's popular because of the truth it holds.<br />
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A year ago today I thought my life as I knew it was ending. Little did I know it had just begun.Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-75319319260842984762012-04-12T13:28:00.000-05:002012-04-12T13:28:46.557-05:00live simply. love extravagantly.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg3ZIULgL4iHxaJHMs-q-sBwnS_ZxBkrpCuWnon_peByORXa6F85MKRvGZ8u3sxF6qyu2AYhkoi2X7Z49djGXvFbv0PVw5NIWMTABUWd4y4R-ORFn7xniqZBhYIOOf_xKGiZV9BG8sHQ8Hg/s1600/222928250274382642_hEo5o0f8_c.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg3ZIULgL4iHxaJHMs-q-sBwnS_ZxBkrpCuWnon_peByORXa6F85MKRvGZ8u3sxF6qyu2AYhkoi2X7Z49djGXvFbv0PVw5NIWMTABUWd4y4R-ORFn7xniqZBhYIOOf_xKGiZV9BG8sHQ8Hg/s320/222928250274382642_hEo5o0f8_c.jpg" width="255" /></a></div>If you let it, a week in the mountains can do a lot. If you're open to it, it can make a lot of room for God to move and reshape and heal and breakdown. I walk away from my week in the Smokies desperate for one thing.<br />
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<b>Simplicity</b>.<br />
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I want to live simply. I want to live without unhealthy ties to this world. I want to live with the outlook that I only get to do this life once, why spend it stressed out & bogged down? I want simplicity to spider out and touch every aspect of my life. I want it to root itself in my relationships so that all they're about is loving extravagantly and serving one other. I want it to eradicate all comparison and jealousy and bitterness, completely simplifying my bonds to people down to the way Jesus wanted them to look. I want to take stock of the people who have weathered every storm with me, and make sure they know how deeply I love them. I want to be real about the people who have been fair-weather, and not feel any bitterness because of it. But I also want to stop expending unnecessary energy on people who only instill doubt and uncertainty in my life. And I want to make sure J knows how thankful I am for him everyday, and allow <i>simple</i> to be a way we live our lives together.<br />
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A simple life is one in which the bad decisions of another person isn't something that ruins my day. It's a life in which I'm not bothered by what you think of me or my decisions. Being able to fully be myself with no apologies. Finally embracing the goofy, funny, free-spirited girl that's embedded in my DNA. Not trying to impress anyone. Not doing things because I "feel like I'm supposed to". Unthreatened by other members of the female race to the point that I'm genuinely excited by their successes. Ideally, it'd start to get easier. Little by little, casting off the entanglements this world throws at us would begin to become more and more second nature. Comparing myself to every person I know would be a broken bad habit. Simplicity would take over. One of the most desperate cries of my heart right now is for a simple, unwritten life. I want to go out and do and be the person I was created to be, without believing the lies the world is whispering in my ear at every turn.<br />
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I wish this was going to be easy as pie. I wish there was a flippable switch that when turned made your life simple and basic. I don't think it really works that way, unfortunately. And because I work well with lists and goals, Ive made a short [yet slightly daunting] list of things that I'm striving to do and not do, that thus far have begun simplifying my life. I know lists translate to "legalism" for some people, but I tend to swing about as far from legalistic as you can get and still get into heaven [joke]. I figured I'd share, maybe someone will adopt it and benefit as well.<br />
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<div style="text-align: right;"> •<i>Use Facebook & twitter less</i>. I don't feel a need to quit completely, but being all up in everyone else's business doesn't exactly scream simple. Backing off my involvement in other peoples' opinions and drama gives me <b>way </b>more time to actually be present in the life that's flashing by. </div><div style="text-align: right;"><br />
•<i>Get to know yourself.</i> We're so caught up in the hustle & bustle, a lot of us never get to really know our own hearts. And it's hard to love someone you don't know. Spend some downtime searching your heart with God.</div><div style="text-align: right;"><br />
•<i>Stop. Comparing.</i> This is a huge one for me. I'm terrible about wishing I was someone other than myself, whether it be a celebrity or a friend or whatever. I'm the only person who's ever going to be me. Might as well be all in.</div><div style="text-align: right;"><br />
•<i>Really dig in with the people who love you well.</i> You may be one of those people with like 10 best friends. Which is awesome. Dig into them, love them, let them love you. I, on the other hand, have about 4 that I sometimes accidentally suck with because I take them for granted. The people who expend the energy to really do life with you deserve the same in return. And spending time with people who truly love and cherish you will only push you to do the same for yourself. Deepen your relationship with the ones who love you exactly where you are right now.</div><br />
You may read all of this and it leaves you empty. No harm, no foul, maybe next time. But I hope at least to a degree it makes you look at your life and see places that need simplifying. That it helps you see the ways that chilling out a little bit could be of great benefit. One by one, maybe we can make this a more simple place. Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-2237987605331964052012-04-09T09:25:00.002-05:002012-04-09T09:25:58.208-05:00promise.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhYWGK3tiGGL-2KPMG6BinIDrgezzoHU4z_JeuRyWlXj6rAjWbXCZ-yZIM79nyunn8kAQ7LWyLRv-MhgCfY0Swnfa5hDQtKlpwuuxzPzqG0HlpmWPxdscBn5ttUWqYQNqbR2aLp1w_ulTHI/s1600/Untitled-2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="417" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhYWGK3tiGGL-2KPMG6BinIDrgezzoHU4z_JeuRyWlXj6rAjWbXCZ-yZIM79nyunn8kAQ7LWyLRv-MhgCfY0Swnfa5hDQtKlpwuuxzPzqG0HlpmWPxdscBn5ttUWqYQNqbR2aLp1w_ulTHI/s640/Untitled-2.jpg" width="640" /></a></div>Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-84557318567170013362012-03-27T10:19:00.000-05:002012-03-27T10:19:07.281-05:00lessons on the levee<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiv5Toe6UA4nX_pzlPmSvxFG10vKXYkqGHaE5i2u0yredq_CFAugTP25Y7w9y9V32gzLiMrbWN2hkxelmdH8WOsqvOxqJCoGbMYfA59DaOnp9KuNiuimYMTeUDD6AeMPJb7A0SmgznWbnLm/s1600/97601516894541747_w1nlAqHe_f.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiv5Toe6UA4nX_pzlPmSvxFG10vKXYkqGHaE5i2u0yredq_CFAugTP25Y7w9y9V32gzLiMrbWN2hkxelmdH8WOsqvOxqJCoGbMYfA59DaOnp9KuNiuimYMTeUDD6AeMPJb7A0SmgznWbnLm/s320/97601516894541747_w1nlAqHe_f.jpg" width="226" /></a></div>{I've been a super crappy blogger lately. I'm aware. Here and there I've felt a little guilt creep in about not only my lack of posting, but my lack of writing in general. For the most part I've been able to keep it at bay with the truth that I decided a while back that I wouldn't write just because I felt like I had to. That I'd write when it was something God placed on my heart, something that he wanted to share. And I just haven't had anything to share lately. I couldn't bring myself to half-heartedly write something just to drum up interest or not have my blog look neglected. Those are the posts that get me in trouble, because they're not God's. They're mine. So anyway, that's my kind of apology for how little I've written lately.}<br />
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On to the issue at hand. Can I just say how blessed I am, right quick? I start a new, crazy awesome job on Thursday, I just got a new car, I have parents who have supported me 100% in everything I've done, girlfriends who hold me up when I can't do it myself, and a boyfriend that I love so much it makes me feel like I might hyperventilate sometimes. But for the last couple of weeks, <b>I have been such a brat</b>. <i>Such </i>a brat. Discontent and constantly complaining and selfish as hell. My entire focus had shifted to one small thing that I had no control over, and all the good things around me had faded in its presence. I'm not exactly comfortable talking about what that thing is, so you're going to have to roll with the ambiguity. But my whole brain and thought process were consumed by thinking about how frustrated I was that I couldn't change this situation that I so desperately needed to. The bitterness that was suffocating my heart was showing up in off-handed jokes and consistently hurtful sarcasm, things that I could easily brush off as "I'm just joking" when I got called on my crap. By the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks, right? Boy, does it. But I felt justified! I felt like it was totally okay that I was feeling the way that I was. Which is pretty much the scariest kind of brat, because then you're a delusional brat. At least if you're being a brat and you own it, you're making a conscious decision to be awful. If you're delusional, a swift smack to reality is usually headed your way.<br />
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I got my smack on Friday night. It actually wasn't too bad, most likely because I had started to become aware of the appalling things coming out of my mouth and hanging out in my heart and had started praying about it. But the smack still came. I mean, I needed it. Initially just overcome by guilt and disgust with myself, I laid in bed wide-eyed until about 4 AM Saturday morning, which is when I just gave up and got up. I showered, grabbed my bible and journal, and drove out to the levee. Looking back, perhaps not my brightest idea, but I find God the easiest when I'm in his creation, and I needed to get outside-stat. I kind of forgot that I was 5 AM and pitch black. Thankfully there's lamps out there. Anyway. I just sat for a long time. I sat and I argued with God. I started trying to make him <b>get with the program </b>and see how I was right. How my timeline and my ideas were better. How these things that I wanted were good and beneficial so why couldn't I have them <b>right now</b>? After a while I finally shut up. And instead of a booming voice of God condemning me and telling me how wrong I was, what I heard was a replay of the words I'd just said. And for the first time in a long time, I actually <i>heard </i>myself. And quickly began looking for a hole to crawl in and hide. There's nothing quite like God holding up a mirror to your heart and being faced with how ugly it's gotten. I sat on that bench on the levee for hours. For a while, just trying to gather my thoughts enough to apologize to God. And then praying to combat the guilt and ask that he help me not stay there, because no one can move forward when they're obsessed with focusing on what they did wrong rather than how to make it right. Thankful that I had my Bible, I flipped to the concordance and started reading every verse it had to offer on contentment. <i>"</i><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><i>Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in <b>whatever </b>situation I am to be content." </i>-Philippians 4:11. In <b>whatever </b>situation. This verse grabbed me because of that word, whatever. And the fuzziness that had been covering all of the good things in my life started to fade. I began to realize how much I had lost sight of, and that this <i>whatever </i>situation I was in, was a dang good one. My heart began to be overwhelmed by awareness and thankfulness for all of the incredible things in my life. And as I watched the sun fill up the sky over the river, the thing that I had been obsessing over and discontent with disappeared with the darkness. </span></span><br />
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Not trusting God with your future manifests itself in discontentment. Discontentment manifest itself in bitterness. Bitterness manifests itself in bitchy comments. And it's really difficult to speak in love and grace when what's fighting to get out is rooted in thinking you're more capable than God. I thought I knew what I needed. I thought that I was ready for what I wanted, and was prideful enough to buck the lessons God was trying to teach me in a waiting period. At that point, I wasn't ready. Obviously, since I was handling it like a 6 year old stomping around in the middle of Toys R Us. There were lessons to be learned, strongholds to be broken, and a sassy mouth to be reigned in. I use the word "were" loosely, because those are all lessons I'm sure I'll learn for the rest of my life.<br />
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</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="background-color: #f9fdff; color: #001320; line-height: 21px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><i>"What sorrow awaits those who argue with their Creator. Does a clay pot argue with its maker? Does the clay dispute with the one who shapes it, saying, 'Stop, you're doing it wrong!' Does the pot exclaim, 'How clumsy can you be?' </i>-Isaiah 45:9</span></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="background-color: #f9fdff; color: #001320; line-height: 21px; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br />
</span></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="background-color: #f9fdff; text-align: justify;"><span style="color: #001320; font-family: inherit;"><span style="line-height: 21px;">I'd rather be a thankful, </span></span><span style="color: #001320;"><span style="line-height: 21px;">malleable pile of</span></span><span style="color: #001320; font-family: inherit;"><span style="line-height: 21px;"> clay, then a back-talking, ungrateful pot. I'd rather live my life resting in the truth that God really does have this than stressed out trying to get it done on my own. I know that I'm probably going to fight this battle everyday for the rest of my life. The battle of thinking I can do it better and having to relinquish control. But I'd rather fight that battle everyday than live thinking I can do it alone. </span></span></span></div>Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-51264527344364744422012-03-21T10:28:00.001-05:002012-03-21T10:30:21.726-05:00you know the drill.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0xGg5EPXrxJcy0jYkUylzm2CW-vZZGhYrAz3mcgwsUOD9zjO-TcUSem8cK7jf6ouv4Z7YEY2ew9DN-6kf4SxPtGPTGGwuBwqyMuTaJWalLFbAUKC1ZESumg8ufkIPWD00wMIvpUv91hEO/s1600/AWK.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0xGg5EPXrxJcy0jYkUylzm2CW-vZZGhYrAz3mcgwsUOD9zjO-TcUSem8cK7jf6ouv4Z7YEY2ew9DN-6kf4SxPtGPTGGwuBwqyMuTaJWalLFbAUKC1ZESumg8ufkIPWD00wMIvpUv91hEO/s1600/AWK.jpg" /></a></div><b>awkward</b>: <br />
-Me. All week last week. I seriously lost all ability to function in social settings. Like, staring into space and doing that awkward "heh heh" laugh when I didn't really hear what people said. So bad. It comes in waves.<br />
-Asking the woman, dressed in all black, standing at the bar of a restaurant, if I seat myself or just wait [maybe a little annoyed because she's ignoring me]. Said woman proceeds to look at me like I'm nuts and look at the actual waitress who's walking around the corner. Ugh.<br />
-I started running again last week. Really, I could leave it at that and it'd be the best part of this week's awkward category. But for me, the most awkward part is coming in the front door and collapsing on the living room floor. And the fact that I'm still red in the face 45 minutes and a shower later. So sexy, y'all.<br />
-The hardest part of my day at this point is not looking at every issue and answering every questions with either "I barely even work here anymore" or "I don't care". But I promised myself I'd finish strong.<br />
-I'm THIS close to shutting down the Lost party at my house because I can't stand to watch Michelle Rodriguez's pitiful attempts to act anymore. I just can't. She is the absolute worst.<br />
-Also entertainment related, it's kind of starting to concern me how emotionally attached to Hunger Games' Peeta I am. Especially now that he's embodied in drool-worthy Josh Hutcherson. It's bad, y'all. Like...I'm not going to see the movie because I know my emotions can't handle it/I'm afraid I'll fall even more in love with him. Go ahead and laugh. I know my anguish is hilarious. [here's hoping J forgets to read this today.]<br />
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<b>awesome: </b><br />
-Ok.I know I only think this weather is awesome because I don't have to be out in it. But I don't have to be out in it, so it's fun to watch through our big windows. I'm also blaring my "showtunes" playlist through my headphones and not caring about anything. All in all a good day.<br />
-Getting stuck in traffic with J and making him answer <a href="http://blakebollinger.blogspot.com/2012/02/pivots-10-questions.html">Pivot's 10 Questions</a>. And that turning into a game of 20 questions. I love him.<br />
-Not counting today [because who counts today?], 3 days left at this job. That's right, I'm taking a vacation day this Friday. Best employee ever.<br />
-I know that 9 times of out 10 there's a mushy sentence under awesome, but I'm in love, I'm in love, & I don't care who knows it! But it's really awesome to have J stand next to me while I talk about this new job venture and the places it could take me, and watch him beam with pride. And talk about how proud he is of me and how great he thinks I'll be at it. I'm seriously the luckiest.<br />
-A weekend with no plans. After a month of being out of town every weekend, I'm really looking forward to some quality time with my own bed and the back of my eyelids.<br />
-Putting in your 2 weeks at a job ='s not having to care about the internet rules. Hello Pinterest! I missed you!Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-3855824486431974632012-03-20T11:19:00.000-05:002012-03-20T11:19:42.926-05:00that time i quit my job<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNCmClLxVjisqVW7aGt_HJBIU5sSe1qDc30Cj6wFhY1Ht1fGz7Y_oWNKkH6TMe9NbqwjkZSYMlzaaGBEor1HO0Ek5ir2iQTwFMdJBqAlvGtO8quAOJ87s5lnc0FTJSNrG5AoKTUOGrw6nU/s1600/tumblr_lqrhdrE5yk1qg1oh8o1_500.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNCmClLxVjisqVW7aGt_HJBIU5sSe1qDc30Cj6wFhY1Ht1fGz7Y_oWNKkH6TMe9NbqwjkZSYMlzaaGBEor1HO0Ek5ir2iQTwFMdJBqAlvGtO8quAOJ87s5lnc0FTJSNrG5AoKTUOGrw6nU/s320/tumblr_lqrhdrE5yk1qg1oh8o1_500.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Last week I put in my two-weeks notice at my super stable, 40-hours-a-week, 7:30-4:30 desk job. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">I already had another job in the bag, my father would've stroked out if I'd quit that irresponsibly. But lately I've enjoyed letting the focus hang on the fact that I quit. At least for a little while. Then I tell people I'd already gotten hired as an assistant manager at a local boutique. The reaction is pretty 80/20. Thankfully, the 80 is the people who have gotten <i>crazy </i>excited. Jump up and down, burst into tears with me, "oh my gosh you're going to be so great at that", fill my heart with joy, <b>excited</b>. The 20 are the people who kind of cock their head to the side and look at me like "<i>huh?" </i>And I can see it in their eyes before they even say a word. <i>Do you even need a degree for that job? </i><i>You graduated from college to be an assistant manager at a clothing store? Is this really what you want to do? </i>And I know that, on the majority, their concerns are for my well-being. It's never out of spite or a desire to pop my happy bubble. They're just worried. And I get it. I'm a pretty judgmental being, so I'm aware that I'd probably judge me too. Plus, they haven't exactly given me the chance to explain. And even if I did, they probably wouldn't really hear me.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">When I put up my facebook status last week, announcing my departure from my current job, I ended it with the statement <i>sometimes you just have to take the leap.</i> Sometimes you just have to take the leap of faith into something people are probably going to think is a little crazy. </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">For the last 10 months, I've sat behind a desk from 7:30 in the morning to 4:30 in the afternoon. I've processed orders, given people quotes, and been the youngest person in the office by about 10 years. Everyday, I sat at this desk and did my best to qualm the feeling rising up that I was capable of so much more than this. That there was no way I was meant to sit behind a desk for the rest of my life. But every time I prayed about it, every time I walked straight into my house and fell into my bed in tears over the hopelessness I felt, God told me to <i>stay</i>. Every job opportunity that opened up fell through. No one was hiring, and I honestly wasn't even sure what I was looking for. For 10 months, he told me that I was right where he wanted me, to stay put. And sometimes I was super pissed with him for it. I was so stuck I couldn't move. And then a friend came to me with this job. </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">I wanted it so bad I could feel the cells in my body vibrating from excitement. The potential within this company is unending! I'd get to be around people and pretty things all day! No pay cut? Ok! So I emailed in my resume and cover letter, and waited. Actually, I sent the email, and immediately picked up my phone and headphones, walked outside, stuck in Bethany Dillion's CD, and prayed. I sat outside the back of my office, listened to her voice, and I prayed. I told God how much I wanted this job. I told him about how it just felt like a good fit, that I thought I could thrive in this environment. I explained about the doors it opened and the potential for me to end up doing something I really love. I told him very intentionally that I wanted this job. But I also told him that if this wasn't it, I would wait. I promised him that if this wasn't the job he wanted for me, that I'd be okay with it. That I'd continue working where I was with a smile on my face. Then I just sat. Slowly, my cells stopped vibrating. I was still excited, but I was more peaceful than anything. I still wanted it, but I wanted Him more. Then the music cut off. I looked down to see an unfamiliar number calling. I answered to a request for an interview. I interviewed on a Tuesday, had my second interview the next Monday, and got the call that I'd gotten the job that night. My first day is next Wednesday. </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">I'm so thankful to be walking into a new season with the reassurance that I handed this over to God first. Handing it all over to Him gave me the <b>ability </b>to jump. If I'd spent all my time worrying about what people would think of a college grad working in retail, or stressing about whether I thought this was the best move, there's a possibility I would've missed the opportunity to leap. It seems silly, but this is all a little scary. It's the unknown, and we humans aren't usually huge fans of the unknown. And I know that I'm not talking about a move to a foreign country or some other huge life event, but this is big in my life. And this is my blog, so..yeah. </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">I have some really big dreams for my life. Ones that for now, I'm choosing to hold pretty close to my chest. They are precious dreams that are between me and God. I find a lot of beauty in that. I find a lot of closeness with him in that. I'm sure one day he'll push me to share them with you, and when that time comes, then I will. But for the time being, I'll share the small steps towards them. </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">There's a whole big world out there. I hope you're out there chasing a dream. </div>Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-38112055389112682952012-03-15T13:42:00.001-05:002012-03-15T13:44:55.806-05:00things i suck at [part I]<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiVJHIM1U3b2iyYDqLs1XRDSOn9uUET4J5UjM30Ld7CLEKKsQt8_MiaRDG1-Gt8B_6MCpRP8DVxsDLsmigO_vNTisdoriaQWv2PxiIh9XMiE4kx-5KoyE1qiA2lnKgEFYYBI2L3IJlAY4XN/s1600/suck.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img aea="true" border="0" height="172" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiVJHIM1U3b2iyYDqLs1XRDSOn9uUET4J5UjM30Ld7CLEKKsQt8_MiaRDG1-Gt8B_6MCpRP8DVxsDLsmigO_vNTisdoriaQWv2PxiIh9XMiE4kx-5KoyE1qiA2lnKgEFYYBI2L3IJlAY4XN/s320/suck.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>Well this should be a fun series, right? Who doesn't love splashing all their inadequacies on these here internets? The full name of that should be "things i suck at, but am actively trying to be better about". I actually kept this first installation of this series in drafts for a couple of months, looking at it here and there, but always ending up leaving it alone and unpublished. But God kept bringing me back to it. He kept pushing me to talk about the things that I, personally, struggle with on a day-to-day basis. These are the things that I struggle with, and convince myself that I am the only person on the planet who does. Which I know to be wholly and completely untrue, but that doesn't always make the feeling go away, now does it? This is, unfortunately, a series that I could probably write on for posts on end, but I don't ever want this to cross the line from transparency and honesty to self-crucifixion. Plus I don't want to bore you. <br />
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<strong>things i suck at [part I]: <em>saying what i feel, and not what i think people want to hear</em></strong><br />
If you've ever read this blog before, you're aware that I am what they call a "people pleaser" to my core. This usually raises its ugly head in awkward or tense situations, not when my friend asks me if her jeans make her butt look big [in that case, I tend to be the honest friend]. But when there is potential for disappointment or strife, my brain is now trained to figure out what a person want me to say at lightening speed and spit it out like clock-work. Which has landed me in some fairly sticky situations. It's had me saying yes to things that I desperately wanted [and needed] to say no to. It's forced me to do something even more awkward than saying no in the first place, and back out after the fact. It's turned me into a doormat in multiple situations. But most of all, and most embarrassing of all, it's kept me from sharing my love for Jesus the way I know I'm capable of. If the situation at hand calls for me to point to the Bible or God about an issue, but I feel as though the person will be unresponsive or "weirded out", odds are I'm probably going to give them some real world mumbo-jumbo and call it a day. [ugh, this is SO MUCH FUN, sharing all this. right?!]<br />
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But as I've fallen more <a href="http://blakebollinger.blogspot.com/2012/02/open-letter-to-god.html">in love</a> with God than ever over the course of this year, this is one of the things he's began to chip at. I loved it when Tim Tebow was recently quoted saying <em>"If you're married, and you have a wife, and you really love your wife, is it good enough to only say to your wife 'I love her' the day you get married? Or should you tell her every single day when you wake up and every opportunity? And that's how I feel about my relationship with Jesus Christ, is that it is the most important thing in my life. So any time I get an opportunity to tell him that I love him or given an opportunity to shout him out on national TV, I'm gonna take that opportunity." </em>The baby steps for this have been working at the root of the issue, working at my inability to speak truth when I feel as though it will offend or make someone uncomfortable. Through walking hand-in-hand with God about this, and admitting that I can't just do it on my own, I've found myself saying no more! I've found myself taking care of myself and not succumbing to the debilitating fear that someone will disapprove. And the most cool part, God and his word just kind of come out of my mouth unprovoked. Because I don't want him anywhere but everywhere, he's in everything I say, even if his name isn't. I find myself less concerned with if someone's going to label me a Bible beater, and more worried about giving half-assed, worldly advice. In the same way, I'm finding it more important to give real, honest answers to things, than half-hearted, contrived ones. And while it's awkward [I <em>just</em> told someone no and kind of thought I might throw up after], it's <strong>good</strong>. It's difficult and against my nature, but it's <strong>good</strong>.<br />
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I'm sure I'll end every part of this series this way, with a loud & proud <span style="font-size: large;">oh ma gah, I so have not even put a dent in this and still totally suck at it</span><span style="font-size: small;">, because it's true. But my hope, and the whole purpose of putting this "out there", is that if someone who reads this struggles the same way, they realize they aren't the only one. And that there really is hope. Everyday, God is remodeling me. Taking out things I was certain would be a part of me forever, and breaking them down. I'm just along for the ride at this point. </span><br />
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<div style="text-align: center;"><em>"Now if we died with Christ, we believe that we will also live with him."</em></div><div style="text-align: center;"><em>-Romans 6:8</em><em></em></div>Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-51317646943541370422012-03-14T10:33:00.002-05:002012-03-14T11:17:57.609-05:00it was a really awkward + awesome week...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjlzjMtnhL-hKw8QlfQTb_y_yZ1iqQ8KWPMBuO4gUF_x6HH5ASSq0eKWM73kbmNTK9yVKWKOm6naFt1-gLvhj7sRs7N7WBIh4z68Ni6e_0mOEAgaRrFSqbGKuYc8UL-SLR7sSmxWfipDURQ/s1600/AWK.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img aea="true" border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjlzjMtnhL-hKw8QlfQTb_y_yZ1iqQ8KWPMBuO4gUF_x6HH5ASSq0eKWM73kbmNTK9yVKWKOm6naFt1-gLvhj7sRs7N7WBIh4z68Ni6e_0mOEAgaRrFSqbGKuYc8UL-SLR7sSmxWfipDURQ/s320/AWK.jpg" width="251" /></a></div><strong>awkward:</strong><br />
-I flew to and from Houston this weekend for a friend’s wedding, in the worst weather Houston’s seen in months. Flight’s delayed all over the place. 3 hour delay getting out of Houston. So much potential for awkward. Like sitting in a terminal restaurant by myself. Or attempting to curl up small enough to sleep in a chair. Or actually falling asleep and waking myself up by slamming my head into the wall next to me. I’m sure I was at least entertaining to watch.<br />
-For those of you who don’t know from facebook or twitter, I quit my job yesterday. Before you panic, I have another one lined up, as the assistant manager at <a href="http://www.frockcandy.com/">Frock Candy</a>. I’m so excited for this new adventure and all the things it brings, but is there anything more awkward than coming to work after you’ve put in your notice? I vote no. I’m committed to coming in and working just as hard as I did before, but it’s just weird. If you’ve been here, you know. <br />
-Have you seen <a href="http://www.celebritysmackblog.com/2012/03/01/lindsay-lohan-today-show-interview-2012/">Lindsay Lohan</a> lately? She's breaking my heart. I wish someone would pin her down, dye her hair back to that pretty red, take all the fillers out of her face, make her eat a burger, and quit being so crazypants. She was my favorite when I was a kid! It just makes me so sad.<br />
-I couldn’t decide whether to put this under awkward or awesome, so let’s just call it an <strong>awkwardawesome</strong>. Come to find out, my hair hates Texas water. So while getting ready for the wedding in Houston this weekend, I get out of the shower, blow dry my hair, and start freaking out. My hair feels like it’s covered it wax, the roots look like I haven’t washed in a week, and it’s just bad. I commence complaining and whining for the next 10 minutes while my sweet friend Johnna helps me with dry shampoo and encouragement, until she’d had enough, looks at the clock, and says “are you hungry? Do we need to feed you?”. It may go down as one of the best moments of our friendship, and that’s saying a lot. I love that she knows me well enough to realize that the overreaction was due to hunger. <br />
-Hair topic #2: what this weather is doing to my hair. Here in LA it’s about 72 degrees and muggy as heck. It’s gross. So horse-tail thick, trying-to-grow-it-out length hair is freaking out. No matter how many times & how well I wash it, it feels like it’s got too much conditioner it in and is waxy and gross. Is this happening to anyone else, or just me?!<br />
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<strong>awesome:</strong><br />
-Watching two people I love very much and that love each other very much become husband and wife. It just never gets old. I continue to believe there is not much more beautiful that than. Oh, and the beyond epic dance party that followed. I love my friends. <br />
-Quitting my job. That was awesome. Well, probably only because I’ve been miserable for about 3 months and got another job lined up. But still, never been so excited to quit something in my life. <br />
-On that note, you know what’s super awesome? Getting a call that you’ve been selected for a job that you really wanted. And the girl on the other end of the line being just as squealy and excited as you are. And your best friend sitting across from you as you try not to burst into tears doing a dance and singing a song she made up about you quitting your job. <br />
-Have I mentioned that I am currently a bridesmaid to the 3rd power? And that I love it so much. Can I be involved in weddings forever, please?<br />
-Staying up until 1 o’clock in the morning, crying from laughing so hard at <a href="http://www.hulu.com/watch/309560/saturday-night-live-weekend-update-rebecca-larue">SNL skits</a> and <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TAl8q4dnIfk">TV show bloopers</a> with two of my favorite people in the world. I kept saying over and over again, I feel like I’m in college! Oh, and being able to sleep till 10 the next day. <br />
-Designing business cards! It’s so much fun! I’m exciting about having something tangible & creative to hand to people to further my wedding business.<br />
-My amazing friend Tara introduced me to the Sherwin Williams Colorsnap app yesterday. Y’all. You can take a picture of ANYTHING and it tells you what paint color it is. Like I wasn’t already addicted enough to color palettes and color schemes?! It’s amazing.Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-6863205314900698492012-03-12T13:29:00.000-05:002012-03-12T13:29:53.009-05:00you can't blame all your issues on someone else<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4K9a6hBsTkvuUpIDviLnHOcBnWB5zWgZnOJlVydActmmsskRhz8-Xb8jO5mzQTXMYoqrFTrJLQAI_AeVEMcHIGO30ydqOaQfbHbZOLaVOlxcin5XD8uGaQ7bXoB2LN8j5wobRDJBqaBt4/s1600/12" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; cssfloat: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4K9a6hBsTkvuUpIDviLnHOcBnWB5zWgZnOJlVydActmmsskRhz8-Xb8jO5mzQTXMYoqrFTrJLQAI_AeVEMcHIGO30ydqOaQfbHbZOLaVOlxcin5XD8uGaQ7bXoB2LN8j5wobRDJBqaBt4/s320/12" width="213" yda="true" /></a></div><span style="font-family: inherit;">You just can't. It’s not fair. Easy? Yes. Fair? Not even a little. There are a plethora of people you can choose to pin your issues on. “Baggage” we call it. An absent (or too present) father, a spiteful mother, all the friends who turned their backs on you, the boy (or girl) who broke your heart. They’re the reason you don’t trust anyone! It’s their fault you struggle with an unhealthy body image! Because of them that you view the whole world through the most high-tuned pair of "everything sucks" glasses ever! If it weren’t for them, you’d have it totally, unequivocally <strong>together</strong>. Right? This isn’t to say that past hurt and heartbreak don’t contribute to the things we battle today, because they most certainly do. Your best friend stabbed you in the back? Yeah, you probably aren’t super inclined to trust every person you meet. Your boyfriend continually commented on how much weight you could afford to lose? That’s not exactly a recipe for self-confidence, now is it? Your parents split up? It's pretty easy to feel like everything sucks. </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">People leave scars on other people every day. If I was a betting girl, I’d say you’ve probably left your fair share of hurt and baggage on other people too. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">You choose to let those things define you. You choose to succumb to the way the things that were done to you make you feel. You choose to let them dictate your reactions in future situations. <strong>You. Choose</strong>. I have another post in the works about not letting your emotions make you their bitch, but I’ll touch on it here. Every day you get a choice. Are you going to wake up defined by your ex-boyfriend who left all this baggage and <em>made</em> you the way you are, or are you going to wake up defined by the saving grace of a Savior who died so that you could live? Is the fact that things haven't always exactly gone your way going to be your identity, or is going to be that there's an almighty Creator who thinks you're pretty much the best thing he's ever made? </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">I know that seems like a really cut-and-dry, too-simple-for-the-situation answer, but it’s the only one. Who’s in control here? You or your past? Well, really, neither. Jesus is. And I’m pretty sure he doesn’t want you casting all the blame for the things you “can’t control” on someone else. If I had to make a guess, I would think he wants you moving forward, daily handing over the struggles you feel like are too big, and resting in his hands. Because the reality is, on your own all that baggage, all those things that have resulting from crappy relationships or circumstances, they’re going to be a part of you forever. If you try to do it on your own, you’re going to continue to blame someone else. Thankfully we serve a God with really wide shoulders. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I did this for a really long time. I blamed my ex for all the things wrong with me. No self-confidence? His fault. No ability to function healthily in conflict? His fault. Temper problems? His fault. Struggles with lust? His fault. I lived snuggled into this lie, never once thinking that maybe it was me. I carried it all straight into my next relationship. You know what blaming all your issues on someone else makes really difficult? Fixing them. I’d venture to say it’s nearly impossible. Because when you’re viewing all these things that way, they’re not your responsibility. They’re someone else’s problem. Even though the life the issues are wrecking havoc on is yours. And probably the people closest to you, by association. I had to wake up one day and decide that I was going to grab my life by the reigns and stop letting someone who wasn’t even in my life anymore drive. Someone who didn’t even want to be driving. And certainly someone I didn’t want driving. I had to choose to face all this crap head on and <strong>deal with it</strong>. I had to decide to stop running from it and defining it as “baggage” and not taking any responsibility for it. And it was super hard. And revealing. And embarrassing at times. A lot of the stuff I had said was “his fault” for so long, was actually my fault. His presence had simply exacerbated some pre-existing problems. It wasn’t his fault that I had little to no self-confidence, that my temper flared sometimes, or that I had no desire to keep my hands to myself. My flesh and I had been having our own little party way before he entered the picture. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">So I want to encourage you to stop blaming other people. Take stock of the scars others have left, and the ones you’ve left as well, and let it go. Start taking steps towards healing and freedom. Quit choosing to live under the suffocating weight of past hurts.</span><br />
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<div align="center"><em>"Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom."</em></div><div align="center">-2 Corinthians 3:17</div><div align="center">[p.s. the Spirit's everywhere. there's freedom everywhere.]</div>Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-64997799491332431422012-03-07T10:58:00.001-06:002012-03-07T14:22:44.539-06:00awkward + awesome gold mine<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoFjCevFJnD2FKzLbYTlkOnAENSkZFHVLlVHwwd9pu4JSdR_xACi-R-UB2d55fU_6mz9yXyxn5VxrJ08Ii_lRHshhtY8ZXK28cs9Ojl7SRh9TOWAoNdwua1Y-Mk6LEXy6OZW2qyFGhJ_XV/s1600/AWK.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoFjCevFJnD2FKzLbYTlkOnAENSkZFHVLlVHwwd9pu4JSdR_xACi-R-UB2d55fU_6mz9yXyxn5VxrJ08Ii_lRHshhtY8ZXK28cs9Ojl7SRh9TOWAoNdwua1Y-Mk6LEXy6OZW2qyFGhJ_XV/s1600/AWK.jpg" yda="true" /></a></div><strong>awkward</strong>: <br />
•1/4 of the way through bible study last night, I realize something is violently jabbing me in my...excuse my frankess, but in my boob. A couple seconds later I realize it's the underwire from my bra. I slip to the bathroom, unzip my dress, fix it, and zip my dress back up, zipping a huge chunk of my hair with it. It took me a solid 5 minutes to get my hair out of the zipper. <br />
•So I have this super cute pair of braided sandals that I love. They're about a 1/2 a size to big for me. But I wear them daily anyway. Yesterday I got up from my desk to ask my coworker something, and went flying across my department as the toe of my shoe bent under and catapulted me forward. I'm pretty sure she thought I was about to hurdle her desk. <br />
•Shopping with a friend Saturday, we agreed to meet at Dillard's. When we left it was starting to rain, so we went our seperate ways and planned to meet at our next destination. She walked straight to her car while I wandered around a bit looking for mine. Meanwhile it starts to pour. It took me about 5 minutes of wandering to realize I had parked at the <em>other</em> entrance to Dillard's. Needless to say, I was damp when I arrived at lunch. <br />
•Remember how amped I was about the Andy Davis concert last Friday? Yeah. We skipped it to go to dinner and go home and watch Swamp People. We skipped a concert by one of my favorite artists to lay on the couch and watch Swamp People. And it was my idea. <em>Who am I?!! </em><br />
•Lunges. And how stupid bad my butt hurts today. And the fact that I'm pretty sure I'm waddling. <br />
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<strong>awesome</strong>: <br />
•Hour long fb conversations with my best friend who currently resides in China, who I miss more everyday. And the promise of getting to see her face on Skype Sunday. <br />
•My amazing, wonderful father offering to fly me to Houston for a wedding this weekend on his points to save me the 5 hour drive. That man, I tell you. He's as good as they come.<br />
•You should know that I have a secret [well, I guess not so secret now] obsession with Kate Middleton. I just love her. So <a href="http://www.katemiddletonforthewin.tumblr.com/">this</a> <strong>really </strong>made my day today.<br />
•Corrine Bailey Rae's "Put Your Records On" with the windows down on a gorgeous day driving down the interstate. That's what's awesome. <br />
•These two are getting married Saturday, and I get to be there. Alex and I met our sophomore year and I thought she hated me. And she thought I hated her. We solved that real quick with an hour long conversation in the hall of an apartment building, discovering we were passionate about all the same things. She's since become one of my most beloved friends, was my roommate for a summer, and even when we get on each other's nerves [aka we're both really strong headed and opinionated], we always make it back to each other. And Preston's just super awesome and sweet-hearted. So thankful that I get to be there to watch them become husband and wife and dance the night away. And until then, I get to stay with that precious pup in the middle. It's going to be SnuggleFest2012 up in there.<br />
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</div>Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-85657726446206060982012-03-06T10:38:00.000-06:002012-03-06T10:38:23.347-06:00when the going gets tough...<span style="font-family: inherit;">Something you should know about me is that I have a deep appreciation and love for clichés. You can flip through this blog’s archive and figure that out in a quick second. This one’s a favorite of my mine. <em>When the going gets tough, the tough get going</em>. I’m not tough. I’m learning how to be tough, but I don’t think it’s a word people who know me well would use to describe me. Outsiders looking in would probably consider me very resilient and “tough”, but that’s just because they don’t get to see the weepy mess that my closest friends and family do. But I’m working on it. My skin is beginning to thicken, my resolve is growing stronger. My reaction to things is beginning to be tears less often, which is great. You can only blame allergies so many times. You see, I am an empath to the highest degree. You feel something, I feel it. Someone hurts you, they hurt me. Which makes me a pretty great friend and an overall dedicated human being, but it also makes me a bit of an emotional mess when the roller coaster starts heading down. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"> </span><span style="font-family: inherit;">I can’t blame it all on being empathetic though. The real reason everything goes to hell when the proverbial shit hits the fan is because I freak out and completely quit trusting God with my situation. I so quickly and easily slip right into “<em>God where are you?!?</em>” mode and totally lose my mind. After my initial freak out I can usually regain my where abouts enough to make myself sit down and pray, but how great would it be if I could avoid that original <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2GQSwMCHJNU">Clark Griswold-esque </a>meltdown? As does almost every other issue in my life, it boils down to where I’m really putting all my eggs. Are they in the <em>me</em> basket, or the <em>Jesus</em> basket? Do I think my plan’s better, or do I think God’s is? Who’s the Creator of the Universe here? Oh yeah. Not me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I hit a bit of a “valley” in life in the last two months or so. You know when it feels like everything’s just falling down on top of you? I don’t want to go into too much detail, because as much as I love sharing life with the internet, some things are mine. But when two or three major parts of your life go to hell in a hand basket, our unfortunately human response is to just lose it. Yesterday was the first day in weeks that I didn’t get off work and bee line straight for my bed to cry it out for the next ten minutes. I’ve been tired and wired and weird. But this time around, one thing that didn’t happen was losing my faith in God and his provision. This time around, I didn’t slip into “God where are you?!?” mode. There were moments where I felt really lost and confused, but I always knew he was there. The skies haven’t necessarily cleared just yet. There are still aspects of my life that aren’t necessarily ideal just yet. Glimmers of hope are beginning to show themselves though. But the best part of it all is that my death grip on Jesus is still just as in place as it was when the roller coaster started. I can honestly say this is the first time I’ve ridden out the storm and not come out the other side only holding on to myself. So yes, I’m tired. And yes, I’m ready for things to start looking up, but oh man-did God show up in the last couple of months. He showed up in my quiet times, he showed up HUGELY in my friendships, he showed up every morning and every time I was in bed crying. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I think we need to stop facing the dark times geared up to face it all by ourselves. We need to quit allowing ourselves to buy into the lie that we are the only person we can depend on. We need to grab on to Jesus with the most intense death grip possible, and ride it out with him. Because as much as most people hate to have <a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Romans+8%3A28&version=NIV">Romans 8:28</a> thrown in their faces when things get rough, it’s true. The valleys, when nothing’s going right and you’re convinced he’s going to keep you here forever-those are the times he uses to level you and build you up the way he intended you. God’s been leveling me everyday lately. Everyday he’s wiping out something I was sure would be a part of me forever, and replacing it with him. The ride’s not over, but we’re both in for the long haul. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">This verse has been my favorite lately. My “life motto” has become <strong>anywhere but everywhere</strong>, a shorten version of something I wrote a couple of weeks ago, that I don’t want God anywhere but everywhere. And this verse really brings it home for me. The idea of continually abiding in the house of my Father brings me so much peace and hope, especially when I relate it to how much I love the weekends I get to escape to my parents’ house. So I want to leave y’all with that, and a link to the song I’ve been listening to on repeat. Spoiler alert: it’s not a Christian song. But Corinne’s voice just soothes me, and I love the intention behind it, <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkEeNpWMvgk">you’re gonna find yourself someday, somehow</a>. </span><br />
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<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><em>“One thing I have asked of the Lord, that I will seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to inquire in his temple. For he will hide me in his shelter in the day of trouble; he will conceal me under the cover of his tent, he will lift me high upon a rock.” </em></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><em>-Psalm 27:4</em></span></div>Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1411353463965190603.post-50490477454228000272012-03-01T10:48:00.000-06:002012-03-01T10:48:30.497-06:00playing married + why i think it's a bad idea<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvl4muDfkGv6wW3hqt5W5jiTi6Ma940ZKbkdn6lls42ymj_WkbIBtbaLUSctA_yFdCg-mX0hTekh3mx_X3G4JCZeJXFt0ZZfhufug3jvhsHZxxnCL0JgasEDmtq8OSEmeMJS4MJyZwLCgS/s1600/1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgvl4muDfkGv6wW3hqt5W5jiTi6Ma940ZKbkdn6lls42ymj_WkbIBtbaLUSctA_yFdCg-mX0hTekh3mx_X3G4JCZeJXFt0ZZfhufug3jvhsHZxxnCL0JgasEDmtq8OSEmeMJS4MJyZwLCgS/s320/1.jpg" width="271" /></a></div>I'm pretty sure we all know exactly what I'm talking about. Either you're currently playing married, you've played married, you are actively fighting against playing married, or you have a friend who has played married and you've watched it go down. We've all either seen or been the couple who spends <b>all </b>their time together (asleep and awake), fights like they think married people are fighting, make extensively futuristic plans together, basically lives at each others' place, and are mostly likely getting as close to playing married in bed as they can without losing their V-card. Are we all on the same page? Great.<br />
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I've played married before. I played married for about two and a half years, in fact. I was the roommate who was never home, and the extra roommate a house of guys really didn't want. For all intents and purposes, he was my mental husband. I already had him nice and neatly placed in the spot reserved for whoever that will be one day in my mind. You see, that's the first thing that happens. You somehow get married in your head. Next thing you know wake up and realize you've been pretending to be a wife without a ring on your finger or a promise made. You make him your mental husband. He ceases being your boyfriend and someone who is not a guarantee, but maybe wants to be your husband one day, and he begins taking on a role that he was never intended to. And that stresses both of you out. There's way too much unnecessary pressure on the relationship. So one day you realize you're bickering like two people who can't stand each other (partially because you kind of can't), and you don't know why. I'll tell you why. It's because you've opened a door that you weren't supposed to open yet.<br />
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<b>We've forgotten how to date</b>. We've forgotten how to hold any kind of emotional boundaries, and have chosen to only consider "boundaries" in a relationship things of a sexual nature. We've allowed it to become a free-for-all. And while it's no one's fault but our own, who can blame us? We just don't know any better. It's human nature to follow the leader, and we're following the lead of our favorite married couples, because that's the rational thing to do. We forget we're not married. We start sleeping over innocently enough, because it's convenient and I'm-sick-of-driving-home-at-12-oclock. We start sharing <i>every</i> part of us, every past-hurt and hope and dream and scar, because no one's ever told us about emotional boundaries. We start blowing off our friendships and isolating ourselves, because he's so much fun to hang out with. We start opening ourselves up physically, because it's just what comes next and we have no self-control. And before you know it, you're playing married with the pros.<br />
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<i>And then you break up.</i> And the healing process is about 1,000 times harder because you're playing divorced now. And he was everything to you. Everything. And nothing's really keeping him here because you <b>weren't</b> married. So he's free to go, no real repercussions. I've walked through this, the deepest parts of this. And the healing process was hard. We shouldn't have been that far in. Even though we'd both long since checked out of the relationship and it could have been much worse, it should've been easier. If I had fought against the desire to play married.<br />
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Because it's a <b>fight</b>. It's a fight to watch J leave every night and not beg him to stay over. It's a fight to not give him every little piece of me because I love him and trust him so indefinitely. Sometimes it's a fight to not hole up with him and never spend any time with anyone else because he's my favorite and I don't feel like I get enough time with him. And yes, it's a fight to <a href="http://blakebollinger.blogspot.com/2011/11/i-hated-book-i-kissed-dating-goodbye.html">keep it in our pants</a>. But that's what you do for love. You put your self and your desires aside, and you fight. Because in the end, choosing to not play married is one of the least selfish things you can do for each other. The reality is, until you say <i>I do</i>, that person you're dating <b>isn't yours</b>. They could very well be intended for someone else, no matter how strongly and surely you feel that they're the one for you. You could break up. Crazier things have happened. J and I could break up tomorrow. So date with that in mind, with the intention of preserving yourself and the one you're with for the person they're meant for. Because it could be you. And how awesome will that be, if you are? That you've saved yourselves for each other, and not just physically. You've saved those deep, untouched parts of your heart for each other and have the rest of your life to discover them. One of the most dangerous parts of playing married is how dang fun it is. Which gives me a little hope, because I like to think being married is pretty fun too [I refuse to buy into the "marriage is all work and no play" dialogue]. And fun things are dangerous. So this really is something you have to daily choose to fight against. But in the end, it's worth it. I only want to be married once, whether it's in my head or not.<br />
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Thoughts?Blakehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12739560951596734469noreply@blogger.com8