Got me right where He wants me.

When will I learn that my life doesn't suprise God? So often I find myself standing back when I feel like everything's falling apart, looking up at God going "um...do you see this? you see what's going on down here? as surprised as i am?" I completely humanize God on a daily basis. Just because I am made in His image doesn't mean that He is made in mine. Thank God.

I am resilient, strong, and, unfortunately, prideful. In my foolishness, I think that my plans are better than God's, my decision making abilities are better than God's, and I'm stronger and wiser than He is-to the point that I can radically alter the plan He has for my life. When things start to go a way I didn't forsee, my immediate reaction is ugh, I messed this up. great. Rather than the much more humble and grateful reaction of clearly my God's plan is better.

Want to know what my "life plan" was when I came to college? I don't know if I've ever told anyone this.

I wanted to be homeless.

I wanted to get through college {because my parents wanted me to have a degree}, and then I wanted to get rid of all my stuff, grow dreadlocks, and travel the country-living in tent cities and under bridges, and by living life with them, show the less fortunate of America what Jesus looks like. Then I wanted to move to Africa with my college boyfriend and build wells and love on abandoned African babies. And when college boyfriend's life plan changed, so did mine. I wanted to be a coach's wife, be a support system, and minister to the other wives, players, and players girlfriends. I wanted to marry this boy I'd been dating for 2+ years and be his...and I never actually ran any of this by God.

I don't remember ever dreaming of working an inside-sales-40-hours-a-week-desk job. Or starting over after 2 years. Or making Baton Rouge home. But, thank you Jesus, I've never been more sure this is right where I'm supposed to be. Right here, waking up at 6:30 every morning to sell pipe fitting and gauges to men on construction sites. Right here, getting to know and be known by the best man I've ever met. Right here, learning to love this city and finding I don't ever want to leave it.

Our God is greater, our God is stronger

than our plans. than our pride. than our disbelief. than our fear.

Life threw me for a little bit of a loophole, but aren't those the sweetest times? I know I've never had a hunger for the word like I do right now. A hunger to learn and better know this God that constantly blows my mind.

Need a game changer? Go read Romans 8. I've been coming back to it for like a week now, and everytime it's better.

For if our God is for us, who can be against us?

{Speaking of life changes, check out this blog by a girl the same age as me who has adopted 13 Ugandan girls. Have tissues handy: http://kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com/}